'What is the use of seeing old Fosbroke when I have had the best advice
in London?' Brian said, peevishly, when urged by his mother-in-law to
take advice from the family doctor. 'I know exactly what ails me--nervous
exhaustion, an over-worked brain, and that kind of thing. I suppose it is
a natural consequence of modern civilisation: men's brains have to go at
express speed in order to keep pace with the average intelligence of the
time.'
'If you had only a better appetite!' sighed Lady Palliser, who had been
distressed at seeing her son-in-law send away plate after plate, with its
contents hardly touched.
'I wouldn't mind having a bad appetite if I could sleep, said he; 'it's
insomnia that tells upon a fellow.'
Brian did not enter into the causes of this dire malady, which had begun
with long nights given to dissipation--not to gross pleasures or vulgar
companions, but to a semi-intellectual dissipation: wit, fun, copious
talk about all things between heaven and earth, in the society of
artists, actors, journalists, Bohemians of all the arts. To the man who
begins by doing without sleep there sometimes comes a day when sleep will
refuse to answer to his bidding. He has acquired the habit of perpetual
wakefulness. The sleep-mechanism of the brain is out of gear. It will go
for half-an-hour, perhaps, or for a few minutes, in spasmodic jerks: and
then it stops all at once, as if the machinery had gone wrong.
So it was with Brian. Those festive nights given over to the feast of
reason and the flow of soul--not to riot or drunkenness, but to the
half-unconscious consumption of much brandy and soda--nights in which
the atmosphere seemed charged with wit and wisdom as with mental
electricity--nights in which a young man, able to talk smartly upon any
given topic, was carried away by the consciousness of his power, and
thought himself a god.
Brian was a member of all those joyous clubs--the night flowers of the
club world, which unfold their petals in the small hours, when the
playhouses are shut, and the lights have been extinguished in all sober
households. There was no offence in any of these institutions, and they
offered a fine intellectual arena, afforded a splendid training for
literary youth: but to a man who loved them too well they meant a
shattered constitution.
Brian had come to Wimperfield in the hope that quiet and country air
would bring back sleep to his eyelids and steadiness to his nerves; but
he had been there a week, and his hand was no steadier, his nights were
no less wakeful. He fancied himself growing weaker day by day, and
although the great authority in Harley Street had strictly forbidden any
stimulant except one glass of stout with his mutton chop at luncheon,
Brian, who was quite unable to eat the chop, found it impossible to lunch
without plenty of dry sherry, or to dine without champagne, and after
dinner drank a good deal of that fine old port which had been laid down
by old Sir Vernon Palliser in forty-seven.
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