'Oh! Sir Vernon's cognac is to be kept sacred, too. I congratulate you,
Vernon, upon having two such economical guardians. Your minority will be
a period of considerable saving.'
He made no further remonstrance, drank neither claret nor hock, ate
hardly anything, but sat through the dinner in sullen silence, and went
off to his room directly Lady Palliser had said grace, leaving the others
to take their strawberries and cream alone. Vernon was what Rogers the
butler called 'a mark on' strawberries and cream.
When Vernie had finished his strawberries, Ida went to her husband's
study; but the door was locked, and when she asked to be admitted Brian
refused.
'I'd rather be alone, thank you,' he answered, curtly. 'I have an article
to write for one of the legal papers. You can amuse yourself with the
baronet. I know you are always glad to be free.'
'Come for a stroll in the park, Brian,' she pleaded gently, pitying him
with all her heart, more tenderly inclined to him in his decay and
degradation than she had been in his prime of manhood, before these fatal
habits began. 'Do come with us, dear. We won't walk further than you
like; it's a lovely evening.'
'I hate a summer twilight,' returned Brian; 'it always gives me the
horrors--a creepy time, when all sorts of loathsome creatures are
abroad--bats, and owls, and stag-beetles, cockchafers, and other
abominations. Can't you let me alone?' he went on, angrily. 'I tell you I
have work to do.'
Ida left him upon this, without a word. What was she to do? This was her
first experience of a mind diseased, and it seemed to her worse than any
trouble that had ever touched her before. She had stood beside her
father's death-bed, and the hair of her flesh had stood up at the awful
moment of dissolution, when it was as if verily a spirit had passed
before her face, calling her beloved from the known to the unknown. Yet
in the awe and horror of death there had been holiness and comfort, a
whisper of hope leading her thoughts to higher regions, a promise that
this pitiful, inexplicable parting was not the end. This dissolution in
the living man, this palpable progress of degradation, visible day by day
and hour by hour, was worse than death. It meant the decay and ruin of a
mind, the wreck of an immortal soul. What place could there be in heaven
for the drunkard, who had dribbled away his reason, his power to
discriminate between right and wrong, by perpetual doses of brandy? what
could be pleaded in extenuation of this gradual and deliberate suicide?
Ida went slowly downstairs, her soul steeped in gloom, seeing no ray of
light on the horizon; for with the most earnest desire to save her erring
husband, she felt herself powerless to help him against himself. If he
were denied the things he cared for at Wimperfield, there was little
doubt that he would go back to his solitary chambers, where he was his
own master. He was not so ill either in mind or body as to justify her in
using actual restraint.
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