The time had then come when she put these emotions away from her as
childish things, and determined never to be faced with any of them
again. It was not likely, then, that she would introduce Nancy to any of
them. She introduced Nancy to clothes and deportment, and left it at
that. She wanted her child to "look nice." She was able, now that Nancy
was five years old, to say that she "looked very nice indeed."
II
From the very beginning nurses were chosen who would take care of Nancy
Boss's appearance. There was plenty of money to spend, and Nancy was a
child who, with her flaxen hair and blue eyes, would repay trouble. She
_did_ repay it, because she had no desires towards grubbiness or
rebellion, or any wildnesses whatever. She just sat there with her doll
balanced neatly in her arms, and allowed herself to be pulled and
twisted and squeezed and stretched. "There's a pretty little lady,"
said nurse, and a pretty little lady Nancy was sure that she was. The
order for her day was that in the morning she went out for a walk in the
gardens in the Square, and in the afternoon she went out for another.
During these walks she moved slowly, her doll delicately carried, her
beautiful clothes shining with approval of the way that they were worn,
her head high, "like a little queen," said her nurse. She was conscious
of the other children in the gardens, who often stopped in the middle of
their play and watched her. She thought them hot and dirty and very
noisy. She was sorry for their mothers.
It happened sometimes that she came downstairs, towards the end of a
luncheon party, and was introduced to the guests. "You pretty little
thing," women in very large hats said to her. "Lovely hair," or "She's
the very image of _you_, Clarice," to her mother. She liked to hear that
because she greatly admired her mother. She knew that she, Nancy Ross,
was beautiful; she knew that clothes were of an immense importance; she
knew that other children were unpleasant. For the rest, she was neither
extravagantly glad nor extravagantly sorry. She preserved a fine
indifference.... And yet, although, here my story may seem to
matter-of-fact persons to take a turn towards the fantastic, this was
not quite all. Nancy herself, dimly and yet uneasily, was aware that
there was something else.
She was not a little girl who believed in fairies or witches or the
"bogey man," or anything indeed that she could not see. She inherited
from her mother a splendid confidence in the reality, the solid,
unquestioned reality of all concrete and tangible things. She had been
presented once with a fine edition of "Grimm's Fairy Tales," an edition
with coloured pictures and every allure. She had turned its pages with a
look of incredulous amazement. "What," she seemed to say--she was then
aged three and a half--"are these absurd things that you are telling me?
People aren't like that. Mother isn't in the least like that. I don't
understand this, and it's tedious!"
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