"A broomstick is what she'll be flying away on one of these nights, you
mark my word," a nurse declared. "Little devil, she is, neither more nor
less. It isn't decent the way she sits on the floor looking right
through the wall into the next room, as you might say. Yes, and knows
who's coming up the stairs long before she's seen 'em. No place for a
decent Christian woman, and so I told her mother this very morning." It
was, of course, quite impossible to find a nurse to stay with Sarah,
and, when she arrived at the age of seven, nurses were dismissed, and
she either looked after herself or was tended by an abandoned French
maid of her mother's, who stayed with Lady Charlotte, like a wicked,
familiar spirit, for a great number of years on a strange basis of
confidante, fellow-plunderer, and sympathetic adventurer. This French
maid, whose name was, appropriately enough, Hortense, had a real
affection for Sarah "because she was the weeckedest child of 'er age
she ever see." There was nothing of which Sarah, from the very earliest
age, did not seem aware. Her mother's gentlemen friends she valued
according to their status in the house, and, as they "fell off" or "came
on," so was her manner indifferent or pleasant. For Hortense, she had a
real respect, but even that improper and brazen spirit quailed at times
before her cynical and elfish regard. To say of a child that there is
something "unearthly" about it is, as a rule, to pay a compliment to
ethereal blue and gold. There was nothing ethereal about Sarah, and yet
she was unearthly enough. Squatting on the floor, her legs tucked under
her, her head thrust forward, her large black eyes staring at the wall,
her black hair almost alive in the shining intensity of its colours, she
had in her attitude the lithe poise of some animal ready to spring,
waiting for its exact opportunity.
When her mother, in a temper, struck her, she would push her hair back
from her face with a sharp movement of her hand and then would watch
broodingly and cynically for the next move. "You hit me again," she
seemed to say, "and you _will_ make a fool of yourself."
She was aware, of course, of a thousand influences in the house of
which her mother and Hortense had never the slightest conception. From
the cosy security of her cradle she had watched the friendly spirit who
had accompanied (with hostile irritation) her entrance into this world.
His shadow had, for a long period, darkened her nursery, but she
repelled, with absolute assurance, His kindly advances.
"I'm not frightened. I don't, in the least, want things made comfortable
for me. I can get along very nicely, indeed, without you. You're full of
sentiment and gush--things that I detest--and it won't be the least use
in the world for you to ask me to be good, and tender, and all the rest
of it. I'm not like your other babies."
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