The strangest thing of all was that Sarah herself liked the company of
other children. She went every morning into the gardens (with Hortense)
and watched them at their play. She would sit, with her hands folded
quietly on her lap, her large black eyes watching, watching, watching.
It was odd, indeed, how, instantly, all the children in the garden were
aware of her entrance. She, on her part, would appear to regard none of
them, and yet would see them all. Perched on her seat she surveyed the
gardens always with the same gaze of abstracted interest, watching the
clear, decent paths across whose grey background at the period of this
episode, the October leaves, golden, flaming, dun, gorgeous and
shrivelled, fell through the still air, whirled, and with a little sigh
of regret, one might fancy, sank and lay dead. The October colours, a
faint haze of smoky mist, the pale blue of the distant sky, the brown
moist earth, were gentle, mild, washed with the fading year's regretful
tears; the cries of the children, the rhythmic splash of the fountain
throbbed behind the colours like some hidden orchestra behind the
curtain at the play; the statues in the garden, like fragments of the
white bolster clouds that swung so lazily from tree to tree; had no
meaning in that misty air beyond the background that they helped to
fill. The year, thus idly, with so pleasant a melancholy, was slipping
into decay.
Sarah would watch. Then, without a word, she would slip from her seat,
and, walking solemnly, rather haughtily, would join some group of
children. Day after day the same children came to the gardens, and they
all of them knew Sarah by now. Hortense, in her turn also, sitting,
stiff and superior, would watch. She would see Sarah's pleasant
approach, her smile, her amiability. Very soon, however, there would be
trouble--some child would cry out; there would be blows; nurses would
run forward, scoldings, protests, captives led away weeping ... and then
Sarah would return slowly to her seat, her gaze aloof, cynical, remote.
She would carefully explain to Hortense the reason of the uproar. She
had done nothing--her conscience was clear. These silly little idiots.
She would break into French, culled elaborately from Hortense, would end
disdainfully--"mais, voilà,"--very old for her age.
Hortense was vicious, selfish, crude in her pursuit of pleasure,
entirely unscrupulous, but, as the days passed, she was, in spite of
herself, conscious of some half-acknowledged, half-decided terror of
Sarah's possibilities.
The child was eight years old. She was capable of anything; in her
remote avoidance of any passion, any regret, any anticipated pleasure,
any spontaneity, she was inhuman. Hortense thought that she detected in
the chit's mother something of her own fear.
III
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