"They've shoved this cabinet over as if they had a special antagonism
to it," he was saying, righting a small piece of furniture containing
mostly Mary's papers. "There--not hurt, is it? Do the drawers open?"
He began pulling them out, one after another. The last refused to
open.
"What's in this one--it blocks the spring?"
Mary tried her hand at it. "Something wedged right at the edge. I'm
sure I don't see what it can be. I never used that drawer for anything
but----"
At their combined jerk the drawer came flying into space, and with it
the remains of a white cardboard box with the monograms of B. C. and
S. O. entwined by means of a cupid and a tiny wreath of flowers. Dried
cake crumbs lay in the bottom of the drawer. It was the Gorgeous
Girl's box of wedding cake which Mary Faithful had found on her desk.
Neither spoke immediately. Finally Mary said: "I suppose that's as bad
an omen as to break a mirror under a ladder on Friday the thirteenth.
Now shall I have the men sweep the office out? There is no reason we
cannot get to work to-morrow."
"Wait a moment about sweeping out offices and going to work," Steve
insisted. "If you want to break the hoodoo you have just brought on
yourself by smashing up wedding cake--let me talk and act as high
priest."
She shook her head. "You promised, and you've been true-blue--don't
spoil it. Besides, it can do no good."
"I want to ask a question," he insisted. "I'm not going to break faith
with you or take advantage of knowing what you told me. I shall always
try to appreciate the honour done me, no matter if I am unworthy. I
want to ask a question in as impersonal a way as if I wrote in to a
woman's column." He tried to laugh.
"Ask away." Mary sat down in the nearest chair, the broken cardboard
box at her feet.
"Why is it that a man can honestly be in love with the woman he
marries and yet in an amazingly short time find himself playing the
cad in feeling disappointed, discontented, utterly lacking affection?
It's a ghastly happening. Why is it he saw no handwriting on the wall?
I am not stupid, Mary, neither am I given to inconstancy--I've had to
struggle too much not to have my mind made up once and for all time.
Why didn't I see through this veneer of a good time that these
Gorgeous Girls manage to have painted over their real selves? Why did
I never suspect? And what is a man to do when he discovers the
disillusionment? You see it all, there's no sense in not admitting
it--why do I find myself ill at ease, now tense, now irritable over
trifles, now sulky, despondent--as plainly sulky and despondent as a
wild animal successfully caged and labelled, which must perforce stay
put yet which will not afford its spectators the satisfaction of
walking wistfully from cage corner to cage corner and yowling in
unanswered anguish!"
"Is it as bad as that?" she asked, softly.
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