She was eager to hold on to the secure forty thousand a year--for his
sake no less than for her own. She argued with him with all the
adroitness of a mind as good in its way as his own. But she could not
shake his resolution. And she in prudence, desisted when he said
bitterly: "I see you've lost confidence in me. Well, I don't blame
you. . . . So have I." Then after a moment, violently rather than strongly:
"But I've got to get it back. If I don't I'm only putting off the
smash--a complete smash."
"I don't see quite how it's to be arranged," said she, red and
hesitating. For, she feared he would think her altogether selfish in her
anxiety. He certainly would have been justified in so thinking; he knew
how rarely generosity survived in the woman who leads the soft and idle
life.
"How long can we keep on as we're living now--if there's nothing, or
little, coming in?"
"I don't know," confessed she. She was as poor at finance as he, and had
certainly not been improved by his habit of giving her whatever she
happened to think was necessary. "I can't say. Perhaps a few months--I
don't know--Not long, I'm afraid."
"Six months?"
"Oh, no. You see--the fact is--I've been rather careless about the
bills. You're so generous, Fred--and one is so busy in New York. I
guess we owe a good deal--here and there and yonder. And--the last few
days some of the tradespeople have been pressing for payment."
"You see!" exclaimed he. "The report is going round that I'm ruined and
done for. I've simply got to make good. If you can't keep up a front,
shut up the house and go abroad. You can stay till I've got my foot back
on its neck."
She believed in him, at bottom. She could not conceive how appearances
and her forebodings could be true. Such strength as his could not be
overwhelmed thus suddenly. And by so slight a thing!--by an unsatisfied
passion for a woman, and an insignificant woman, at that. For, like all
women, like all the world for that matter, she measured a passion by the
woman who was the object of it, instead of by the man who fabricated it.
"Yes--I'll go abroad," said she, hopefully.
"Quietly arrange for a long stay," he advised. "I _hope_ it won't be long.
But I never plan on hope."
Thus, with his sister and Fitzhugh out of the way and the heaviest of
his burdens of expense greatly lightened, he set about rehabitating
himself. He took an office, waited for clients. And clients
came--excellent clients. Came and precipitately left him.
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