Bohemianism -- Fiction; City and town life -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
“Do! Ought I to be here taking up your time? Perhaps you wanted to get
away from every one or you wouldn’t have come.” Dan felt the contrast
between them more and more; his clothes seemed poorly fitted and his
scarf pin a trifle gaudy, his shoes the fire-sale variety—a country
bumpkin beside this adorable, tall girl in the lace and pink satin with
distracting, tangly ribbons.
“I like to talk to you, Dan. I wondered how we would meet!”
“What made you come back?” he demanded. “It wasn’t the Corners and I
don’t flatter myself it was me ... for you could have written me at any
time and I would have come!”
The slim fingers stopped plaiting the grass. “Would you—_really_?”
He looked at her with despairing eyes. “Did you get any big baskets of
orchids and lilies with a card, ‘from an old friend’?”
“Were they from you?” she said sadly. “Oh, Dan, it was too bad you ever
had to care for me!”
“Can you stop the birds from singing or the sun from shining—or a fool
for loving some one very fine?”
“Why, no,” Thurley looked out at the hills. “That’s always the hardest
thing in the world—not the caring for some one but caring for some one
who doesn’t care for you!”
Dan reached over to take her hand. “Is it that that brought you here?”
he asked tenderly. “Doesn’t some one love you? You needn’t answer. I
know ... so fame isn’t enough,” he dropped her hand almost roughly.
“Everything’s in the devil of a mess,” he remarked to no one in
particular.
Thurley caught the drift of his remark. “It’s the devil of a mess,” she
repeated clearly, “because we are not bad enough to be all bad and do
terrible things that blot out the hurts or not all good so we can be
saints with wings and harps for consolation ... we just struggle—most of
us.”
“When did you know I was married?”
“The night of my début—like a story, isn’t it?”
“And we were there—’Raine and I—on our wedding trip.” After three years’
attempt at bravado, the real heart of him was allowed to suffer, suffer
as it should have done three years ago instead of fanning revengeful
temper on as a worthless substitute.
Thurley faced him directly, hugging her long legs under her boy fashion.
“I’m not worth it. The best part of me is my voice, Dan. Only the worst
part of me isn’t content to have it that way. I’ve worked mighty hard
since we said good-by—I’ve known all sorts and conditions of people,
great and near great, good and bad—I’ve had all sorts of men make love
to me and I’ve encouraged all sorts of men—just so far. I’ve done things
no one would approve of my doing and some things that only a few could
approve of or understand. Mostly though I’ve worked and worked and I’ve
decided that it is either work for me all my days if I’m to keep on
singing, or else I’ll stop working and love and be loved, perhaps. But
the two do not go hand in hand ... perhaps I’m bitter.”
“She made you promise never to marry,” Dan interrupted; “she is a
selfish old woman who wasn’t fair!”
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