British -- India -- Fiction; India -- History -- British occupation, 1765-1947 -- Fiction
Maurice frowned, and sighed. In all his knowledge of her, Quita had
never so completely lost her self-control. It was quite upsetting: and
he disliked being upset the first thing in the morning. It put him out
of tune for the rest of the day. But after all . . one must eat. And
he retraced his steps to the dining-room.
"I wish to heaven she had never discovered this uncomfortable husband
of hers!" he reflected as he went "Since he will neither marry her, nor
leave her alone; and it is we who have to suffer for his heroics!"
For all that, he found speedy consolation in the thought that at ten
o'clock a new 'subject' was coming to sit to him:--a wrinkled hag, whom
he had met on his way back from Jundraghat, bent half double under a
towering load of grass, her neutral-tinted tunic and draped trousers
relieved by the scarlet of betel-nut on her lips and gums, and by a
goat's-hair necklet strung with raw lumps of amber and turquoise,
interset with three plaques of beaten silver;--the only form of savings
bank known to these simple children of the hills.
While hastily demolishing his breakfast, Maurice visualised his picture
in every detail: and with the arrival of his model all thought of Quita
and her woes was crowded out of his mind. Yet the man was not
heartless, by any means. He was simply an artist of the extreme type,
endowed by temperament with the capacity for subordinating all
things,--his own griefs no less than the griefs of others,--to one
dominant, insatiable purpose. And according to his lights he must be
judged.
Quita remained invisible till lunch-time, lying inert, where she had
flung herself, upon her unmade bed.
The first tempest of misery, and rebellion, and self-castigation had
given place to sheer exhaustion. For even suffering has its
limitations; which is perhaps the reason why grief rarely kills. All
the springs of life seemed suddenly to have run down. Her spirit felt
crushed and broken by the obstructiveness of all about her. The strain
of the past three weeks, following upon a severe shock, had told upon
her more than she knew; and this morning's sharp revulsion of feeling
brought her near to purely physical collapse.
And while she lay alone through two endless hours, tracing designs from
the cracks in the whitewashed wall, one conviction haunted her with
morbid persistence. Because she had not valued him in the beginning,
because she had repudiated him in a moment of wounded pride, he would
be taken from her, now that heart and soul were set upon him, and she
would never see him again. It was useless to argue that the idea was
childish; a mere nightmare of overwrought nerves. It persisted and
prevailed, till she felt herself crushed in the grip of a relentless,
impersonal Force, against which neither penitence nor tears would avail.
Finally, worn out with pain and rebellion, she fell asleep.
BOOK III.-THE TENTS OF ISHMAEL.
CHAPTER XVIII.
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