British -- India -- Fiction; India -- History -- British occupation, 1765-1947 -- Fiction
"Yes, in some ways . . it does. And for that very reason I doubt
whether I am fitted to make them. It's a gift, an art, like everything
else. Not the creating of them, of course. That's a privilege, or a
fatality, as the case may be! But the moulding of them, after they are
created. You can't deny that they complicate things: and even at this
stage, I find marriage a far more complicated affair than I imagined it
to be. Didn't you?"
Honor's smile was sufficient evidence to the contrary. But she was
old-fashioned enough to have a difficulty in talking about the hidden
poem of her life.
"Perhaps we were exceptions, Theo and I," she said at last. "We knew
one another . . intimately, before starting; and to live with him,
and . . in him, seemed to come as natural as breathing. But then, my
dear, I'm simply a wife and a mother: not a woman of genius, like you."
"Aren't you, indeed? Don't pulverise me with sarcasms, please! In my
opinion this exquisite passion of yours for being 'simply a wife and a
mother' is in itself a kind of genius: perhaps the highest there is.
You see and feel the essential beauty of both relations so vividly that
you make one see and feel it also; just as certain other kinds of women
make one half-ashamed of being a woman at all! Yours is the
temperament that gives, Honor, . . gives royally; and is always sure of
return because it looks for none. While as for me, my present
complications are the natural outcome,--multiplied by six years,--of my
long-ago blindness and folly, that sprang from my capacity for taking,
without a thought of giving in return. You see, Eldred and I have both
an ample time to crystallise in different directions: and the years we
let slip may be trusted to exact their debt to the uttermost
farthing.--Ah, there he is!"
The words were a mere throb of the heart. She was on her feet when the
man entered: and Honor, watching her face, thought she had never seen
it so nearly beautiful. She herself rose also, with a prompt excuse
for departure.
"I haven't even _seen_ Theo since breakfast," she said as they shook
hands. "Tent-pegging days are hopeless: and I promised to go down
early. Don't trouble to come out with me, please."
But Lenox insisted: and on his return found Quita back at her canvas,
to all appearance working diligently at a difficult bit of detail in
one corner. She greeted him with lifted brows.
"Finished your article already?"
"No."
"Then what on earth are you doing, loafing about in here? I'm busy. I
want to get this bit done before I go out."
"Do you though?" but instead of retreating, he came closer,
deliberately confiscated palette and brushes, and drew her into his
arms.
"Shall I send Desmond a 'chit,' to say 'I have married a wife, and
therefore I cannot come'?"
"Yes,--do. He'll forgive you."
"And shall we go for a long ride across country, when I'm through with
my work: and look in at the tent-pegging later?"
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