“No use,” I said fiercely. “I am strong, and a brute perhaps, and I am
going to use my strength to rob your lips. They have insulted me often
enough to deserve that toll. Scream if you like. It can hurt no one
but yourself. Why did you think I made that remark about Johnny Dando?
I myself hardly knew at the moment; but now I know. I was
jealous--wickedly, horribly jealous. I had no right to be, I own--no
right to think at all of you. But I do, Ira--I can’t help it; no more
can you. I think of you, I am thinking of you now, in a way that would
make you blush if you knew. Be quiet; it is useless your struggling. I
want just that much of you--your mouth, and I intend to have it. Then
I will let you go, and you can punish me as you like. Only this one
thing you will never be able to say again--that your lips are virgin
lips to the man who shall come to court and win you. You had better
say nothing about it to him. That will be always the secret between
you and me, Ira; and I will promise for my part to hold it inviolate.”
Something in the word, perhaps, drove me beyond myself. I bent my face
down towards hers.
She had lain all this time like a wounded fawn in my arms, her eyes
closed, her lips a little parted, the breath fluttering in her tender
side. Now suddenly, to my wonderment, she looked up at me with a
wistful smile.
“Richard,” she said, “you do not want me to die, do you? I thought I
was going to; and then you came, and I could have cried with delight.
I was so cold, and I had lost myself, and my heart seemed to fly out
to your warmth and strength; and I thought, He is going to help me,
though I have been so foolish; and suddenly I felt quite safe and
happy.”
The madness died down in me, like a flame on which fragrant spices
have been thrown. I seemed to myself to gasp for breath. She had seen
me coming to her in her peril, and had felt safe.
“No, Ira,” I said, in a low choking voice, “I do not want you to die.”
“Then why do you threaten me with this killing shame?”
“I must have some of you. I never knew my own mad need until this
moment.”
“Are you in love with me, Richard?”
“Yes. Now you mention it, I suppose that’s it.”
“And do you want to shame the thing you love?”
“No, Ira, if you would only love me too a little. Will you?”
She gave a thread of a smile.
“How can I help it, if it is to save myself?”
I gathered her furiously to my breast, and rose to my feet, holding
her so. My arms were crushed about her; I set my teeth, snarling, to
the demons of the storm. Let death and hate try to come to conclusions
with me for this my possession. Not a breath should enter to despoil
her, if I knew her really for my own. I looked with wonder once more
into her face. The very veins in it were things to love like flowers;
the snowflakes crisped upon her hair; her eyes were closed again, and
happily, it seemed to me.
“My God!” I said. “It can’t be true--it can’t. Answer me, Ira. Are you
not offended?”
“I don’t think so, Richard.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account