It was a resolve, indeed, not to be regarded lightly; for with what
thunderbolts did it not threaten that old unconscious head! Into the
peaceful chamber of his meditations I was to flounce with fire and
brimstone--murder, blackmail and, worst of all, to some minds, sick
dishonour. For, as to that last, my determination to speak the truth
was one with all the rest. Lady Skene had laid no embargo on me, but
had rather implied, I thought, an acquiescence in my possible advocacy
of her cause. And, indeed, it was out of all my heavy duty the task I
feared the least, since, I believed, it would prove the one the least
disturbing to his lordship; and that for reasons given long ago. The
lesson of that deceit, I suspected, would lack all but a roguish moral
in his eyes.
But, for his boy; his murdered heir! How would he take that ghastly
revelation, and how decide to deal with it?
Yet there was no other course--none that I could see; and I confess,
for myself, that the prospect of shifting the whole burden of my
responsibilities to the shoulders of that shrewd legal understanding
was not, in my then state of exaltation, an unwelcome one. I wanted
freedom in myself for the range of lovelier thoughts. Why should I
retain for ever the sole thankless wardenship of that secret? I was
quite ready to forego my part of principal there, and decline upon the
humbler rank of scout or agent to his lordship.
Yet, when it came to the prick of decision, I lingered and lingered
out the moments. The old man had been good to me. He was happy and
secure in his ignorance. Would he hold the profits of this débâcle
to compensate its losses, and thank me for an interference, which
could bring no gains to him but disillusionment? The substantial
gains, indeed, were more for me than him--and so for Ira. I owed them,
after all, to her. Though I hated my iconoclastic part, it was that
tender debt must hold me inexorably to it.
I had informed Geoletti of my purpose; and he had answered “It is
well, signore. That which you decide is good, is good.” Then he
bestirred himself to do my household work, and, when all else was
finished, retired into the little kitchen to scrub pots and pans.
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