I suppose I ought to have felt some discomposure in her presence,
seeing the nature of my thoughts about her husband. I was conscious of
nothing, however, but an increased sense of the aversion with which
she had at the first inspired me. There was something antipathetic to
my nature in this barren reticence, in this material and intellectual
threadbareness, one might call it, especially as contrasted with the
showy qualities of her partner. I could not dissociate in the two the
essential squalor, whether of soul or person, which goes with crime.
It was part of the eternal tragedy of her colourlessness, it was a
heart-rending consequence of her malleability, that she was thus
moulded to repel where she most sought for sympathy. But how could I
know that?
Now, to be conscious of these feelings in myself, and of the certainty
that her hidden eyes, holding me at a disadvantage, were probing and
interpreting them, filled me with a sort of helpless anger. I might
even have been sharp, plain with her under the irritation, had she not
suddenly taken the initiative. With a swift movement, she put a hand
upon my arm, looking the while, quick and nervous, about her; and then
she entreated me in a hoarse, small voice:
“Leave him alone; don’t watch him; what are you thinking of? He’ll not
let his plans miscarry for such as you. I warn you. You’d better take
my warning.”
I was so shocked, so dumfoundered, that for a moment I could answer
her not a word. Here, it seemed, was the moral of all my self-pluming
astuteness. But the lesson gripped me on the instant.
“You speak of Mr Dalston?” I said.
“Yes,” she answered. “He’s gone to London, or I shouldn’t have dared
to venture this.” Even so, it seemed, the terrific spectre of him
stalked her fancy, for the motion of her head never ceased to suggest
a fearful watchfulness. “He knows that you are observing him--plotting
against him, perhaps. There is never anything hidden from him long.
You’ll be a fool if you don’t desist.”
“Why should he fear observation?” I muttered some commonplace about
conscience.
“Why?” she said. “How can I tell? I know he’s here to carry out some
scheme of force or fraud. I know he’s got some claim on Lady Skene.
It’s all nothing to me. Where he goes, I go; and what he wills, that
thing comes to happen. Do you wish to die yet--horribly, secretly, and
no one guess how or where?”
“I neither wish nor intend to.”
“Intend? That sounds brave. You’ll need some bravery.”
“Is he capable of it--going to those lengths? Why do you tell me all
this?”
“For yourself--not for him.”
“How have I earned your consideration?”
She seemed to look at me intently. Her hands sought my arms; but I
backed instinctively from their touch. She stopped at once, and I was
sorry. But not even this new aspect of her could conquer my
repugnance.
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