I have seen things I cannot tell you of. I have gained understandings past my power To give you clearly; yet upon me rests The teasing call to tell you, here I lie Revolving this new task of leadership. How shall I make you see I have not failed you? Not really played a treasonous soul to you? Not scorned the cause I gave you, kept you in? Or damned you for, or made you suffer for? I railed at heaven, I instructed you To rail as well. How can you understand I now accept the fate? Will you despise me For saying this? Or will you say disease Has weakened me, cooled off the fire of soul And damped my courage? Then go on your way To find a worthier leader? So to doubt I taught you once, but now my mind believes. And to deny the order of the world I gave you words, now I affirm the plan. To fight against the gods in man’s behalf, I made my leadership. Now I perceive The cause of gods and men made one. You see It is not individual gain that counts In these external benefits of freedom And satisfaction of material wants, That counts so much, I say, as inner chains Struck from the wrists, and inner scales peeled off From inner eyes. I grant the human cause, And say this,--Can I make you understand? To give you proof my heart is with you yet Let me reveal my sacrifice. Suppose You’ve found a truth that others knew before you, Seen, let us say, the cat, as single taxers Are wont to say? You hunt up some adherent Who’s labored with you, tell him, “I’m convinced, I see the cat at last.” You want to share Your joy with some one, want his dragging hope To hear you have arrived. And so with me I hungered to communicate my vision To some one who had seen it, and who knew Its meaning, what it meant to me.