Betrothal -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
To understand Henry’s emotion at Philip’s invitation would be to
understand everything about Henry, and that no one has ever done. His
chief sensation was one of delight and excitement—this he hid from all
the world. He had waited, during more years than he could remember, for
the arrival of that moment when he would be treated as a man. Lately he
had said to himself, “If they’re all going to laugh at me always, I’ll
show them one day soon.” He had a ferocious disgust at their lack of
penetration. He had, from the very first, admired Philip’s appearance.
Here was a man still young, with perfect clothes, perfect ability to get
in and out of a room easily, perfect tranquillity in conversation. He
had been offended at Philip’s treatment of Seymour, but even that had
been a bold, daring thing to do, and Henry was forced to admit that he
had been, since that episode, himself sometimes doubtful of Seymour’s
ability. Then Philip in his conversation had shown such knowledge of the
world; Henry could listen all day to his talk about Russia. To be able
to travel so easily from one country to the other, without fear or
hesitation, that was, indeed, wonderful!
Afterwards had occurred one of the critical moments in Henry’s career;
his passionate memory of that afternoon when he had seen the embrace of
Katherine and Philip, changed those two into miraculous beings, apart
from all the world. He heard Philip for the audacity of it, he also
admired him, envied him, speculated endlessly about it. “Ah! if somebody
would love me like that”, he thought. “I’d be just as fine. They think
me a baby, not fit even to go to college, I could—I could ...” He did
not know what it was that he could do. Perhaps Philip would help him.
And yet he did not really like Philip. He thought that Philip laughed at
him, despised him. His one continual fear was lest Philip should teach
Katherine, Henry’s adored and worshipped Katherine, also to despise him.
“If he were to do that I’d kill him”, he thought. He believed utterly in
Katherine’s loyalty, “but she loves Philip so now. It’s changed her.
She’ll never belong to us properly again.” Always his first thought was:
“So long as he’s good to her and makes her happy nothing matters.”
Now it seemed that Philip _was_ making her happy. Katherine’s happiness
lit, with its glow, the house, the family, all the world. When,
therefore, Philip asked Henry to dine with him, the great moment of
Henry’s life seemed to have come, and to have come from a source
honourable enough for Henry to accept it.
“If only I dare,” Henry thought, “there are so many things that I should
like to ask him.” The remembered passion of that kiss told Henry that
there could be nothing that Philip did not know. He was in a ferment of
excitement and expectation. To the family he said:
“I’m afraid I shan’t be in, Tuesday evening. Sorry, but Philip and I are
dining together. Expect I’ll be in, Wednesday, though.”
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