England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
"It is a very bad plan," she said quietly, "to put your own imaginings
into your anticipations of another person's feelings towards or about
you. Nothing is more misleading--it blocks the way to any sympathy
between you. I know Regina Bretton very well, otherwise I would not
have accepted her proposal. She is the sort of woman who will enjoy
your inexperience, as well as"--mother went on, with a little mischief
in her tone--"smartening you up generally. She loves being appealed to;
then, too, she is your godmother, and _really_ thoroughly kind-hearted."
The remembrance of this and other reassuring remarks of a similar kind
did comfort me a little. Still more so the sight of my godmother's
kind, handsome face when I saw her for the first time coming downstairs
to receive me on the afternoon of my arrival at her house. Nothing
could have been more affectionate or _un_-alarming than her manner of
welcome.
"I would have gone to the station to meet you," she said, "but it is
often more embarrassing than pleasant, when people are not quite sure of
each other by sight. Then I knew, too, that you had your maid with you,
and indeed, dear, as regards actual travelling, you are far more
experienced than I; you have had so much of it."
Trifling as was this remark, it helped to put me at my ease; it showed a
wish on my hostess's part to say something pleasant and gratifying.
Surely it would be well if there were a little more of this sort of
thing among us English people? As a rule, we are so terribly afraid of
agreeable impulses, reserving all approach to commendation or admiration
till absolutely sure of good grounds for such. Yet the same caution
does not hold on the converse side. An air of cold criticism, in itself
more discouraging very often than an openly disagreeable remark, is as a
rule accepted as correct. May it not be that in this particular people
deceive themselves, and at the root of our unattractive reserve and
so-called terror of flattering, there often lurks an underlying spirit
of reluctance to discern or allow, even to ourselves, the best points of
another? Still worse, not impossibly, in many instances some more or
less specious touch of jealousy?
I have wandered a little from the case in point, which is scarcely a
typical one. On my kind cousin's part there could have been no
conceivable temptation to disparagement of me in any way. Not even of
my youth, for its benefits were still practically hers. She had
magnificent health, was still as pretty as she had ever been--some
indeed said prettier; she was surrounded by friends, many of whom at
least--most, let us hope--were attached to her by reason of her own
unspoilt, unselfish character, far more than by that of her prosperous
and important position.
There was but one blank page in her life. She had no children of her
own, though the devotion of the best of husbands, as was hers, scarcely
allowed her to realise this one great want.
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