Autobiographical fiction; France -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
Never had Robert spoken to me so tenderly of his friend as he did during
this walk. She alone had taken root in his heart; his future career in
the Army, his position in society, his family, he was not, of course,
indifferent altogether to these, but they were of no account compared
with the veriest trifle that concerned his mistress. That alone had any
importance in his eyes, infinitely more importance than the Guermantes
and all the kings of the earth put together. I do not know whether he
had formulated the doctrine that she was of a superior quality to anyone
else, but I do know that he considered, took trouble only about what
affected her. Through her and for her he was capable of suffering, of
being happy, perhaps of doing murder. There was really nothing that
interested, that could excite him except what his mistress wished, was
going to do, what was going on, discernible at most in fleeting changes
of expression, in the narrow expanse of her face and behind her
privileged brow. So nice-minded in all else, he looked forward to the
prospect of a brilliant marriage, solely in order to be able to continue
to maintain her, to keep her always. If one had asked oneself what was
the value that he set on her, I doubt whether one could ever have
imagined a figure high enough. If he did not marry her, it was because a
practical instinct warned him that as soon as she had nothing more to
expect from him she would leave him, or would at least live as she
chose, and that he must retain his hold on her by keeping her in
suspense from day to day. For he admitted the possibility that she did
not love him. No doubt the general affection called love must have
forced him—as it forces all men—to believe at times that she did. But in
his heart of hearts he felt that this love which she felt for him did
not exhaust the possibility of her remaining with him only on account of
his money, and that on the day when she had nothing more to expect from
him she would make haste (the dupe of her friends and their literary
theories, and loving him all the time, really—he thought) to leave him.
“If she is nice to me to-day,” he confided to me, “I am going to give
her something that she’ll like. It’s a necklace she saw at Boucheron’s.
It’s rather too much for me just at present—thirty thousand francs. But,
poor puss, she gets so little pleasure out of life. She will be jolly
pleased with it, I know. She mentioned it to me and told me she knew
somebody who would perhaps give it to her. I don’t believe that is true,
really, but I wasn’t taking any risks, so I’ve arranged with Boucheron,
who is our family jeweller, to keep it for me. I am glad to think that
you’re going to meet her; she’s nothing so very wonderful to look at,
you know,” (I could see that he thought just the opposite and had said
this only so as to make me, when I did see her, admire her all the more)
“what she has got is a marvellous judgment; she’ll perhaps be afraid to
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