Autobiographical fiction; France -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
conferring the benefit of my knowledge on a soul that is still virgin
and capable of being inflamed by virtue. I have had great sorrows, sir,
of which I may tell you perhaps some day; I have lost my wife, who was
the loveliest, the noblest, the most perfect creature that one could
dream of seeing. I have young relatives who are not—I do not say worthy,
but who are not capable of accepting the moral heritage of which I have
been speaking. For all I know, you may be he into whose hands it is to
pass, he whose life I shall be able to direct and to raise to so lofty a
plane. My own would gain in return. Perhaps in teaching you the great
secrets of diplomacy I might recover a taste for them myself, and begin
at last to do things of real interest in which you would have an equal
share. But before I can tell I must see you often, very often, every
day.”
I was thinking of taking advantage of this unexpected kindness on M. de
Charlus’s part to ask him whether he could not arrange for me to meet
his sister-in-law when, suddenly, I felt my arm violently jerked, as
though by an electric shock. It was M. de Charlus who had hurriedly
withdrawn his arm from mine. Although as he talked he had allowed his
eyes to wander in all directions he had only just caught sight of M.
d’Argencourt, who was coming towards us from a side street. On seeing
us, M. d’Argencourt appeared worried, cast at me a look of distrust,
almost that look intended for a creature of another race than one’s own
with which Mme. de Guermantes had quizzed Bloch, and tried to avoid us.
But one would have said that M. de Charlus was determined to shew him
that he was not at all anxious not to be seen by him, for he called to
him, simply to tell him something that was of no importance. And fearing
perhaps that M. d’Argencourt had not recognised me, M. de Charlus
informed him that I was a great friend of Mme. de Villeparisis, of the
Duchesse de Guermantes, of Robert de Saint-Loup, and that he himself,
Charlus, was an old friend of my grandmother, and glad to be able to
shew her grandson a little of the affection that he felt for her.
Nevertheless I observed that M. d’Argencourt, albeit I had barely been
introduced to him at Mme. de Villeparisis’s, and M. de Charlus had now
spoken to him at great length about my family, was distinctly colder to
me than he had been in the afternoon; and for a long time he shewed the
same aloofness whenever we met. He watched me now with a curiosity in
which there was no sign of friendliness, and seemed even to have to
overcome an instinctive repulsion when, on leaving us, after a moment’s
hesitation, he held out a hand to me which he at once withdrew.
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