Autobiographical fiction; France -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
anti-Dreyfusism which now divided France from end to end were, on the
whole, silent, but the occasional echoes which they emitted were
sincere. When you heard anyone in the middle of a conversation which was
being deliberately kept off the Case announce furtively some piece of
political news, generally false, but always with a hopefulness of its
truth, you could induce from the nature of his predictions where his
heart lay. Thus there came into conflict on certain points, on one side
a timid apostolate, on the other a righteous indignation. The two
butlers whom I heard arguing as I came in furnished an exception to the
rule. Ours let it be understood that Dreyfus was guilty, the Guermantes’
butler that he was innocent. This was done not to conceal their personal
convictions, but from cunning, and in the keenness of their rivalry. Our
butler, being uncertain whether the fresh trial would be ordered, wished
beforehand, in the event of failure, to deprive the Duke’s butler of the
joy of seeing a just cause vanquished. The Duke’s butler thought that,
in the event of a refusal, ours would be more indignant at the detention
on the Devil’s Isle of an innocent man. The porter looked on. I had the
impression that it was not he who was the cause of dissension in the
Guermantes household.
I went upstairs, and found my grandmother not so well. For some time
past, without knowing exactly what was wrong, she had been complaining
of her health. It is in moments of illness that we are compelled to
recognise that we live not alone but chained to a creature of a
different kingdom, whole worlds apart, who has no knowledge of us and by
whom it is impossible to make ourself understood: our body. Say that we
met a brigand by the way; we might yet convince him by an appeal to his
personal interest, if not to our own plight. But to ask pity of our body
is like discoursing before an octopus, for which our words can have no
more meaning than the sound of the tides, and with which we should be
appalled to find ourself condemned to live. My grandmother’s attacks
passed, often enough, unnoticed by the attention which she kept always
diverted to ourselves. When the pain was severe, in the hope of curing
it, she would try in vain to understand what the trouble was. If the
morbid phenomena of which her body was the theatre remained obscure and
beyond the reach of her mind, they were clear and intelligible to
certain creatures belonging to the same natural kingdom as themselves,
creatures to which the human mind has learned gradually to have recourse
in order to understand what the body is saying to it, as when a
foreigner accosts us we try to find some one belonging to his country
who will act as interpreter. These can talk to our body, and tell us if
its anger is serious or will soon be appeased. Cottard, whom we had
called in to see my grandmother, and who had infuriated us by asking
with a dry smile, the moment we told him that she was ill: “Ill? You’re
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