Great Britain. Royal Navy -- Fiction; Seafaring life -- Fiction
“Yes,” said Hartington, “but work with what object? Think of it: the
work we do from day to day gives precious little satisfaction in
itself. I suppose everyone--no matter in what line of business--has
one supreme ambition that overshadows all other ambitions. But in most
lives, while a man waits for his Great Attainment he is kept going by
smaller successes, intermediate achievements that have at least some
of the qualities of permanence. The statesman waiting to pass his
Great Reform passes smaller measures that are _something_--something
that stands. Or the novelist writing his intermediate novels, or the
architect designing the houses that are to precede his Great Design, or
the shopkeeper, even, opening a new branch here and a new branch there,
stepping-stones to the Great Store of his dream, but each a substantial
achievement in itself; all these people know that, even if the Great
Dream comes to naught, they have constructed something more durable
than themselves. But the naval officer accomplishes nothing by the way.
I suppose Guns is glad if a battle practice goes well, but it all ends
in a round of drinks; no one is the happier for it. No one is a whit
the happier for anything we do.”
“The practical economists would tell you that we are indirectly
constructive because we protect commerce,” John said.
“The boy who frightens birds with his clacker is constructive in
that sense. So is the hangman with his rope. No, that’s too shallow
a foundation on which to build comfort. All our eggs are in one
basket. War is everything to us. And when the war is over and we can
say there will not be another war for fifty years, perhaps a hundred
years--certainly not in our time, what then? How are we going to live
through routine? What heart shall we put into preparation for a remote
possibility?”
“And we shall still be young men.”
“We shall have all our lives before us.”
John rested his head on his hand as if he were tired. “And even now,”
he said, “when at least this wonderful achievement of ours is in the
future and not in the past, it seems a poor thing to me. I may be
a Sub when it comes, or I may be a Lieutenant--anyhow, a cog in the
machine.”
“The Lord knows when it’s coming. We may be Admirals by then.”
John thought. He was perceiving a revealing truth. “I don’t want to be
an Admiral,” he said.
“But that, in a naval officer, is heresy and disaster,” Hartington
answered, with a hidden smile. “You ought to want to be an Admiral. At
the age of twelve you promised, as it were, to love, honour, and obey.”
“I did want to be an Admiral--then.”
“But you must want it now. You must make yourself want it.”
“Because there’s nothing else to want?”
“Just that.” Hartington was determined that, for his own sake, John
must be made to see his position with perfect clearness. “But in time
of war,” he went on, “an Admiral’s position is different from his
position now.”
“The chances are heavily against his having a command.”
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