And for once the men were as hard as their wives. They had resented
the fact of a woman being set among the ranks of great English squires;
but having been put there, they expected from her virtues of far more
illustrious character than they would have demanded from a man. "For
whativer can a woman need wi' so much brass?" asked Squire Horton,
indignantly. "She doesn't hunt, and she can't run for t' county, and
what better could she hev done than clear an old Yorkshire name o'
its dirty trade stain. I'll lay a five-pound note as Squire Henry left
her all for t' varry purpose. He nivver thought much o' his son
Antony's fine schemes."
"There's them as thinks he left her Hallam to prevent Antony wearing
it on his creditors."
"There's them thet thinks evil o' God Almighty himsen, Thomas Baxter.
Henry Hallam was a gentleman to t' bone. He'd hev paid ivery shilling
afore this if he'd been alive. Yorkshire squires like their own, but
they don't want what belongs to other folk; not they. Squire Hallam
was one o' t' best of us. He was that."
And though Elizabeth had expected nothing better from her neighbors,
their continued coldness hurt her. Who of us is there that has not
experienced that painful surprise that the repulsion of others awakens
in our hearts? We feel kindly to them, but they draw back their hand
from us; an antipathy estranges them, they pass us by. What avail is
it to tell them that appearances deceive, that calumny has done us
wrong? What good is it to defend ourself, when no one cares to listen?
when we are condemned before we have spoken? Nothing is so cruel as
prejudice; she is blind and deaf; she shuts her eyes purposely, that
she may stab boldly; for she knows, if she were to look honestly at
her victim, she could not do it.
But O, it is from these desolate places that heart-cry comes which
brings God out of his sanctuary, which calls Jesus to our side to walk
there with us. It is in the deserts we have met angels. A great trial
is almost a necessity for a true Christian life; for faith needs a
soil that has been deeply plowed. The seed cast upon the surface rarely
finds the circumstances that are sufficient for its development. And
blessed also are those souls to whom the "long watches" of sorrow are
given! It is a great, soul that is capable of long-continued suffering,
and that can bring to it day after day a heart at once submissive and
energetic and all vibrating with hope.
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