“I saw a look to you that was right manlike a week or two back,” she
replied; “and I said to myself: 'There's David growing up overnight.' I
favored it, too, though I didn't want to lose you that way so soon. And
only last night I said again: 'Thank God, David's a man in his heart,
for all his pretty cheeks!' I thought I could build on you, with me
getting old and Allen never taking a mortal step. Priest would give you
a place, and glad, in the store--the Kinemons are mighty good people. I
had it all fixed up like that, how we'd live here and pay regular.
“Oh, I didn't say nothing to your father when he started out--he was
too old to change; but I hoped you would be different. I hoped you would
forget your own feeling, and see Allen there on his back, and me ...
getting along. You're all we got, David. It's no use, I reckon; you'll
go like Allen and Hunter, full up with your own pride and never----” She
broke off, gazing bitterly at her hands folded in her calico lap.
A new trouble filled David's heart. Through the open doorway he could
see Allen, twisting on the couch; his mother was older, more worn, than
he had realized. She had failed a great deal in the past few days. She
was suddenly stripped of her aspect of authority, force; suddenly she
appeared negative, dependent. A sharp pity for her arose through his
other contending emotions.
“I don't know how you figure you will be helping Allen by stepping off
to be shot instead of putting food in his mouth,” she spoke again. “He's
got nobody at all but you, David.”
That was so; and yet--
“How can I let those skunks set their hell on us?” he demanded
passionately. “Why, all Greenstream will think I'm afraid, that I let
the Hatburns bust Allen and kill my father. I couldn't stand up in
Priest's store; I couldn't bear to look at anybody. Don't you understand
how men are about those things?”
She nodded.
“I can see, right enough--with Hunter in the graveyard and Allen with
both hips broke. What I can't see is what we'll do next winter; how
we'll keep Allen warm and fed. I suppose we can go to the County Home.”
But that, David knew, was as disgraceful as the other--his own mother,
Allen, objects of public charity! His face was clouded, his hands
clenched. It was only a chance that he would be killed; there were four
Hatburns though. His heart, he thought, would burst with misery;
every instinct fought for the expression, the upholding of the family
prestige, honor. A hatred for the Hatburns was like a strangling hand at
his throat.
“I got to!” he said; but his voice was wavering; the dull conviction
seized him that his mother was right.
All the mountains would think of him as a coward--that Kinemon who
wouldn't stand up to the men who had destroyed Allen and his father!
A sob heaved in his chest; rebellious tears streamed over his thin
cheeks. He was crying like a baby. He threw an arm up across his eyes
and stumbled from the room.
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