Not magical, but enchanted away from solidity, seems now that life at
Abercorran House, where Jessie, Ann, Aurelius, and the rest, and the
dogs, and the pigeons, sat or played in the sun, I suppose, without us
and Shelley, throughout that April. There never was again such another
Spring, because those that followed lacked Philip. He fell ill and
stayed on at Lydiard Constantine to be nursed by my Aunt Rachel, while
I went back to read about the Hanseatic League, Clodia (the Lesbia
of Catullus), and other phantoms that had for me no existence except
in certain printed pages which I would gladly have abolished. With
Philip I might have come to care about the Hansa, and undoubtedly about
Clodia; but before I had done with them, before the cuckoos of that
poet’s Spring were silent, he was buried at Lydiard Constantine.
At this point the people at Abercorran House--even Jessie and
Aurelius--and the dogs that stretched out in deathlike blessedness
under the sun, and the pigeons that courted and were courted in the
yard and on the roof, all suddenly retreat from me when I come to
that Spring in memory; a haze of ghostly, shimmering silver veils
them; without Philip they are as people in a story whose existence
I cannot prove. The very house has gone. The elms of the Wilderness
have made coffins, if they were not too old. Where is the pond and
its lilies? They are no dimmer than the spirits of men and children.
But there is always Ann. When “Life of Life” is eclipsed and Spring
forgotten, Ann is still in Abercorran Street. I do not think she sees
those dim hazed spirits of men and children, dogs and pigeons. Jessie,
she tells me, is now a great lady, but rides like the wind. Roland
never leaves Caermarthenshire except after a fox. Jack has gone to
Canada and will stay. Lewis is something on a ship. Harry owns sheep
by thousands, and rents a mighty mountain, and has as many sons as
brothers, and the same number of daughters, who have come to the point
of resembling Jessie: so says Ann, who has a hundred photographs. Mr
Morgan is back at Abercorran. When good fortune returned to the Morgans
the whole family went there for a time, leaving Ann behind until the
house should be let. She stayed a year. The family began to recover
in the country, and to scatter. Jessie married and Jack left England
within the year. Ann became a housekeeper first to the new tenant
of Abercorran House, afterwards to Mr Jones at Abercorran Street.
Otherwise I should not have written down these memories of the Morgans
and their friends, men, dogs, and pigeons, and of the sunshine caught
by the yard of Abercorran House in those days, and of Our Country, and
of that Spring and the “Life of Life” which live, and can only perish,
together. Ann says there is another world. “Not a better,” she adds
firmly. “It would be blasphemous to suppose that God ever made any but
the best of worlds--not a better, but a different one, suitable for
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