The Happy WarriorHutchinson, A. S. M. (Arthur Stuart-Menteth)
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The Happy Warrior
Hutchinson, A. S. M. (Arthur Stuart-Menteth)
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When he was done he pushed back his chair and she dropped her eyes, for
his were now upon her and had the steady, reckoning look she had
observed--and feared--when he regarded her for that moment at his
entrance. She could not endure the feeling that he watched her, and
watched her so. "You will go to bed soon, Percival," she said. "You
do look so tired."
He replied: "I am not tired. I have something to ask you first, Aunt
Maggie;" and after a pause he went on: "Aunt Maggie, I was telling you
this afternoon that I thought I ought to be doing something. Well,
more than that I thought I ought to be doing something, and more than
merely telling you--because I know I was in a great state about it and
went off in a great state."
She answered, "Yes, Percival?"
"You said there was plenty of time for that."
"Yes, Percival."
"There isn't, Aunt Maggie." And he went on quickly: "there isn't
plenty of time to think about what I am going to do. I am not a boy
any longer. Even if I started to-morrow I should be starting late.
Every one at my age is doing something."
His tone was firm and quiet but was kind. She said that which made it
take a harder note.
"Percival, you need only wait," she said, "till you are twenty-one."
She saw his face darken in a change as swift and chill as sudden shadow
along the sea. "Oh, that!" he cried. "That! I don't want to hear
that any more or ever again! Is that all you have for me?"
She clasped and unclasped her hands on the table before her. He waited
several moments for her answer. Then he said: "And what am I to do
till then?"
She told him: "Only wait with me, Percival."
He said very quietly: "No, I will not wait. I will not stay with you.
I am going away."
The stress that each suffered was broken out of them by his
announcement. The thought of losing him, the thought of how a word,
revealing her secret, would keep him, broke from her in her cry: "No,
no, Percival! Oh, Percival, no!"
Her sudden voice and its anguish smote him to his depths in his own
stress as a sudden cry in the night that shocks the heart. He uttered
in a voice she had never heard--most hoarse, most atremble: "Oh,
understand! For pity's sake try to understand. I am so that I will
never sleep again--never again till I have earned my sleep. Oh,
understand that I am a man!"
She saw his dear face, his handsome face, his face that she loved so
and was to lose unless she spoke, all twisted up as though he writhed
in pain. She cried: "Percival, don't look like that. I can keep you.
I cannot let you go."
He looked at her with eyes that told his anguish of this scene and of
his spirit. "You cannot keep me," he said. "I am going."
She breathed: "By telling you I can keep you."
He said: "Tell me, then."'
She began, her tongue heavy as a key is rusty that is to turn in a lock
closed eighteen years; "Rollo--" she began, and stopped.
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