The Happy WarriorHutchinson, A. S. M. (Arthur Stuart-Menteth)
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The Happy Warrior
Hutchinson, A. S. M. (Arthur Stuart-Menteth)
Fiction
She sighed very deeply. Her trembling had in some degree communicated
itself to him. He trembled for the shame he knew she must be
suffering, and for the effect upon him that her gentle, even voice had,
crooning its tragedy in the darkness of their remote and silent
situation, and for the effect upon him of that long sigh--rising and
then falling away to tiniest sound, as it had been the passing of some
spirit released to glide away across the bracken.
"--Why cried I 'ended that'?" and then her long, sad sigh; and then:
"Because all is nought, little master;" and he saw her fingers extend
and her head bow a little....
She arose then, slowly, and he went back to give her room. Her hair
had slipped the last coil that held it, and was in a black sheen to her
waist before one shoulder and in a black sheen to her waist behind her
back. She began to loop it up with deft but tired fingers and looked
at him while she twined it. Her face was very kind to him; the stars
caught it, and he saw those stars upon her mild mouth that had tricked
him to his wanton act: they seemed to show her almost smiling at him.
He asked: "Are we going now?"
She smiled then, gently. "Nay," she said. "I have left my poor
secrets here--suffer me to go alone." Then turned and left him; and he
watched her form swiftly merging to the darkness--now high among the
bracken, now lower and lower yet, as though it were a deepening pool
she entered. Now gone.
III
It seemed to Percival, left alone, as if some horrible and most
oppressive trouble had befallen him. This piteous thing had struck so
suddenly that for some moments he remained only numbed by it, as
numbness precedes the onset of pain from a blow. When the full meaning
returned to him, "Good God!" he cried aloud, "What a thing to have
happened!" and most tenderly--with increasing tenderness, with
increasing grief--he went through all she had revealed and how she had
revealed it. It was surely the most monstrous pitiful thing that ever
could be, her secret plots and strivings to fit herself for what she
yearned--tasking herself in "gentle ways," in speech of his fashion, in
hard books, in the life between walls and under roofs; he ached for her
in every bone as he thought of her thus schooling herself--for him.
"Oh, horrible, horrible!" he muttered, writhing for her to remember all
her little cares for him--her attention to his clothes, her concern
that he should not get into "rough ways"; horrible! horrible! now that
he knew their loving purpose. And then her revelation of it! He must
rise and pace, the better to endure the recollection of that. How
terribly she struggled in his arms! "God, what a beast a man can be!"
he cried. What agony must have wrung that cry, "Ah, Percival, how you
must despise me!" What agony that "This to happen!" What pain, what
bleeding of her heart, that lamentable ending--"Because all is naught,
little master!" Happy, happy time when first she used to call him by
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