The Head of the House of CoombeBurnett, Frances Hodgson
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The Head of the House of Coombe
Burnett, Frances Hodgson
England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
“No, because you wouldn’t look at me—you were too much engaged. Do you
like this step?”
“I like them all.”
“Do you always dance like this? Do you always make your partner feel as
if he had danced with you all his life?”
“It is—because we played together in the garden,” said Robin and then
was quite terrified at herself. Because after all—after all they were
only two conventional young people meeting for the first time at a
dance, not knowing each other in the least. It was really the first
time. The meeting of two children could not count. But the beating and
strange elated inward tremor would not stop.
As for him he felt abnormal also and he was usually a very normal
creature. It was abnormal to be so excited that he found himself, as it
were, upon another plane, because he had recognized and was dancing
with a girl he had not seen since she was five or six. It was not
normal that he should be possessed by a desire to keep near to her,
overwhelmed by an impelling wish to talk to her—to ask her questions.
About what—about herself—themselves—the years between—about the garden.
“It began to come back bit by bit after I had two fair looks. You
passed me several times though you didn’t know.” (Oh! had she not
known!) “I had been promised some dances by other people. But I went to
Lady Lothwell. She’s very kind.”
Back swept the years and it had all begun again, the wonderful
happiness—just as the anguish had swept back on the night her mother
had come to talk to her. As he had brought it into her dreary little
world then, he brought it now. He had the power. She was so happy that
she seemed to be only waiting to hear what he would say—as if that were
enough. There are phases like this—rare ones—and it was her fate that
through such a phase she was passing.
It was indeed true that much more water had passed under his bridge
than under hers, but now—! Memory reproduced for him with an acuteness
like actual pain, a childish torment he thought he had forgotten. And
it was as if it had been endured only yesterday—and as if the urge to
speak and explain was as intense as it had been on the first day.
“She’s very little and she won’t understand,” he had said to his
mother. “She’s very little, really—perhaps she’ll cry.”
How monstrous it had seemed! Had she cried—poor little soul! He looked
down at her eyelashes. Her cheek had been of the same colour and
texture then. That came back to him too. The impulse to tighten his
arms was infernally powerful—almost automatic.
“She has no one but me to remember!” he heard his own child voice
saying fiercely. Good Lord, it _was_ as if it had been yesterday. He
actually gulped something down in his throat.
“You haven’t rested much,” he said aloud. “There’s a conservatory with
marble seats and corners and a fountain going. Will you let me take you
there when we stop dancing? I want to apologize to you.”
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