In the late afternoon the lonely dark figure crossed the open and
dropped down on the new grave, not in an agony of tears, but as if there
was some comfort to be gotten out of contact with the mere soil. The old
feeling of loneliness, which had always tinged her character with a
covert defiance, was overwhelming her. She belonged to no one now. She
had no people. She was an outcast from two races, feared of each because
of the other's blood. The most forsaken man or woman may claim at least
the kinship of his kind, but she had no kind. She crouched on the mound
and looked at the sunset as she had looked that evening years before,
but her eyes were not fearless now. As a trapped animal of the plains
might watch a prairie fire licking nearer and nearer, making its slow
way up to him in spurts of flame and in dull, thick clouds of smoke that
must stifle him before long, so she watched the dreary future rolling in
about her. But gradually the look changed to one farther away, and
alight with hope. She had realized that there was, after all, some one
to whom she belonged, some one to whom she could go and, for the first
time in her life, be loved and allowed to love.
It had not occurred to her for some hours after Mrs. Campbell had told
her of Landor's death that she was free now to give herself to Cairness.
She had gasped, indeed, when she did remember it, and had put the
thought away, angrily and self-reproachfully. But it returned now, and
she felt that she might cling to it. She had been grateful, and she had
been faithful, too. She remembered only that Landor had been kind to
her, and forgot that for the last two years she had borne with much
harsh coldness, and with a sort of contempt which she felt in her
unanalyzing mind to have been entirely unmerited. Gradually she raised
herself until she sat quite erect by the side of the mound, the old
exultation of her half-wild girlhood shining in her face as she planned
the future, which only a few minutes before had seemed so hopeless.
And when the retreat gun boomed in the distance, she stood up, shaking
the earth and grasses from her gown, and started to carry out her plans.
A storm was blowing up again. Clouds were massing in the sky, and night
was rising rather than the sun setting. There was a cold, greenish light
above the snow peak, and darkness crept up from the earth and down from
the gray clouds that banked upon the northern horizon and spread fast
across the heavens. A bleak, whining wind rustled the leaves of the big
trees down by the creek, and caught up the dust of the roadway in little
eddies and whirls, as Felipa, with a new purpose in her step, swung
along it back to the post.
She would not be induced to go near her own house that night. When
Ellton suggested it, she turned white and horrified. It had not occurred
to him before that a woman so fearless of everything in the known world
might be in abject terror of the unknown.
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