Mrs. Wallace began talking the old nonsense which, in days past, had delighted James; it enchanted him to hear her say, in the tone of voice he knew so well, just those things which he had a thousand times repeated to himself. He looked at her with a happy smile, his eyes fixed upon her, taking in every movement. "I don't believe you're listening to a word I'm saying!" she cried at last. "Why don't you answer?" "Go on. I like to see you talk. It's long since I've had the chance." "You spoke yesterday as though you hadn't missed me much." "I didn't mean it. You knew I didn't mean it." She smiled mockingly. "I thought it doubtful. If it had been true, you could hardly have said anything so impolite." "I've thought of you always. That's why I feel I know you so much better now. I don't change. What I felt once, I feel always." "I wonder what you mean by that?" "I mean that I love you as passionately as when last I saw you. Oh, I love you ten times more!" "And the girl with the bun and the strenuous look? You were engaged when I knew you last." James was silent for a moment. "I'm going to be married to her on the 10th of October," he said finally, in an expressionless voice. "You don't say that as if you were wildly enthusiastic." "Why did you remind me?" cried James. "I was so happy. Oh, I hate her!" "Then why on earth are you marrying her?" "I can't help it; I must. You've brought it all back. How could you be so cruel! When I came back from the Cape, I broke the engagement off. I made her utterly miserable, and I took all the pleasure out of my poor father's life. I knew I'd done right; I knew that unless I loved her it was madness to marry; I felt even that it was unclean. Oh, you don't know how I've argued it all out with myself time after time! I was anxious to do right, and I felt such a cad. I can't escape from my bringing-up. You can't imagine what are the chains that bind us in England. We're wrapped from our infancy in the swaddling-clothes of prejudice, ignorance, and false ideas; and when we grow up, though we know they're all absurd and horrible, we can't escape from them; they've become part of our very flesh. Then I grew ill--I nearly died; and Mary nursed me devotedly. I don't know what came over me, I felt so ill and weak. I was grateful to her. The old self seized me again, and I was ashamed of what I'd done. I wanted to make them all happy. I asked her again to marry me, and she said she would. I thought I could love her, but I can't--I can't, God help me!" Jamie's passion was growing uncontrollable. He walked up and down the room, and then threw himself heavily on a chair. "Oh, I know it was weakness! I used to pride myself on my strength of mind, but I'm weak. I'm weaker than a woman. I'm a poor reed--vacillating, uncertain, purposeless. I don't know my own mind. I haven't the courage to act according to my convictions. I'm afraid to give pain. They all think I'm brave, but I'm simply a pitiful coward...."