Governesses -- Fiction; Love stories; Young women -- Fiction
I remember that my attitude was anything but graceful, and that I
sighed. I sighed more than once and somewhat loudly. I was depressed,
and as usual when depressed I felt small and desolate. It would have
been a relief to cry; but I couldn't cry when I was expecting Hugh. I
could only toss about in my big chair and give utterance to my pent-up
heart a little too explosively.
It was five or six days since Larry Strangways's call, and no real
development of my blind alley was in sight. He had not returned, nor had
I heard from him. On the previous evening Hugh had said, "I thought
nothing would come of that," in a tone which carried conviction. It
wasn't that I was eager to be Stacy Grainger's librarian; it was only
that I wanted something to happen, something that would justify my
staying in New York. August had passed, and with the coming in of
September I saw the stirring of a new life in the streets; but there was
no new life for me.
Nor, for the matter of that, did I see any new life for Hugh. He had
entered now on that stage of waiting on the postman which a good many
people have found sickening. Bankers and brokers having promised to
write when they knew of anything to suit him, he was expecting a summons
by every delivery of letters. On his dear face I began to read the
evidence of hope deferred. He was cheery enough; he could find fifty
explanations to account for the fact that he hadn't yet been called; but
brave words couldn't counteract the look of disquietude that was
creeping day by day into his kindly eyes. On the previous evening he had
informed me, too, that he had left his club and installed himself in a
small hotel, not far from my own neighborhood. When I asked him why he
had done that he said it was "to get away from a lot of the fellows who
were always chewing the rag," but I suspected the motive of economy. For
the motive of economy I should have had nothing but respect, if it
hadn't been so incongruous with everything I had known of him.
It was probably because my eyes had grown accustomed to the gloom in the
reception-room that I noticed, suddenly, two other eyes. They were in a
distant corner and seemed to be looking at me with the detached and
burning stare of motor-lamps at night. For a minute I could discern no
personality, the eyes themselves were so lustrous.
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