Governesses -- Fiction; Love stories; Young women -- Fiction
I stood up as he approached, but I had time to appraise my situation. I
saw all its little mysteries illumined as by a flash. I saw why Stacy
Grainger had kept track of me; I saw why, in spite of my deficiencies,
he had taken me on as his librarian; but I saw, too, that the Lord had
delivered J. Howard Brokenshire into my hands, as Sisera into those of
Jael, the wife of Heber the Kenite.
CHAPTER XIII
I was relieved of some of my embarrassment by the fact that Mr. Grainger
took command.
Having bowed over Mrs. Brokenshire's hand with an empressement he made
no attempt to conceal, he murmured the words, "I'm delighted to see you
again." After this greeting, which might have been commonplace and was
not, he turned to me. "Perhaps Miss Adare will give me some tea."
I could carry out this request, listen to their scraps of conversation,
and think my own thoughts all at the same time.
Thinking my own thoughts was the least easy of the three, for the reason
that thought stunned me. The facts knocked me on the head. Since before
my engagement as Mr. Grainger's librarian this situation had been
planned! Mrs. Brokenshire had chosen me for my part in it! She had given
Mr. Grainger my address, which she could have learned from her mother,
and recommended me as one with whom they would be safe!
Their talk was only of superficial things; but it was not the clue to
their emotions. That was in the way they talked--haltingly, falteringly,
with glances that met and shifted and fell, or that rested on each other
with long, mute looks, and then turned away hurriedly, as if something
in the spirit reeled. As she gave him bits of information concerning
the summer at Newport, she stumbled in her words, because there was no
correlation between the sentences she formed and her fundamental
thought. The same was true of his account of yachting on the coast of
Maine, of Gloucester, Islesboro, and Bar Harbor. He stuttered and
stammered and repeated himself. It was like one of those old Italian
duets in which stupid words are sung to a passionate, heartbreaking
melody. Nevertheless, I had enough sympathy with love, even with a
guilty love, to have some mercy in my judgments.
Not that I believed it to be a guilty love--as yet. That, too, I was
obliged to think over and form my opinion about it. It was not a guilty
love as yet; but it might easily become a guilty love. I remembered that
Larry Strangways, with all his admiration for his employer, had refused
him a place in his list of whole-hearted, clean-hearted men because he
had a weakness; and I reflected that on the part of Mrs. Billing's
daughter there might be no rigorous concept of the moralities. What I
saw, therefore, was a man and a woman so consumed with longing for each
other that guilt would be chiefly a matter of opportunity. To create
that opportunity I had been brought upon the scene.
[Illustration: I SAW A MAN AND A WOMAN CONSUMED WITH LONGING FOR EACH
OTHER]
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