Governesses -- Fiction; Love stories; Young women -- Fiction
"They're speaking of another kind of love, with which the mere sexual
has nothing to do. I'm not an ascetic, and I know the sexual has its
place. But there's a love that's as much bigger than that as the sky is
bigger than I am."
"Yes, but so long as one never sees it--"
I suppose it was her tone of feeble rebellion that roused my spirit and
made me speak in a way which I should not otherwise have allowed myself.
"You do see it, darling Mrs. Brokenshire," I declared, more sweetly than
I felt. "I'm showing it to you." I rose and stood over her. "What do you
suppose I'm prompted by but love? What urges me to stand by Mr.
Brokenshire but love? What made me step in between you and Mr. Grainger
and save him, as well as you, but love? Love isn't emotion that leaves
you weak; it's action that makes you strong. It has to be action, and it
has to be right action. There's no love separable from right; and until
you grasp that fact you'll always be unhappy. I'm a mere rag in my own
person. I've no more character than a hen. But because I've got a wee
little hold on right--"
She broke in, peevishly, as she turned away:
"I do wish you'd let me go to sleep."
I got down from my high horse and went back, humbly, to my couch.
Scarcely, however, had I lain down, when the voice came again, in
childish complaint:
"I think you might have kissed me."
I had never kissed her in my life, nor had she ever shown any sign of
permitting me this liberty. Timidly I went back to the bed; timidly I
bent over it. But I was not prepared for the sudden intense clinging
with which she threw her arms round my neck and drew my face down to
hers.
CHAPTER XIX
In the morning Mrs. Brokenshire was difficult again, but I got her into
a neat little country inn in Massachusetts by the middle of the
afternoon. I had to be like a jailer dragging along a prisoner, but that
could not be helped.
On leaving Providence she insisted on spending a few days in Boston,
where, so she said, she had friends whom she wished to see. Knowing that
Stacy Grainger would be at one of the few hotels of which we had the
choice, I couldn't risk a meeting. Her predominating shame, a shame she
had no hesitation in confessing, was for having failed him. He would
never forgive her, she moaned; he wouldn't love her any more. Not to be
loved by him, not to be forgiven, was like death. All she demanded
during the early hours of that day was to find him, wherever he had
gone, and fling herself at his feet.
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