This noon he felt breathless, confused. It was as though something opaque
kept flicking back and forth across his eyes, clouding his vision. He
could not concentrate; felt he could not bear to step into a room, shut
the door, and sit down to a desk. He knew he would be useless, that he
would accomplish nothing, so he headed on out Woodward Avenue, not turning
east at the Boulevard. He wanted to get away from human beings, to be
alone and to quiet himself. The calm of the country drew him, and he
longed, without realizing his longing, for the soothing hand of open
places and sweet air. He even thought of playing golf--a round of golf
would settle him down, and he could make up for it by added hours of work
that night.
He passed through Highland Park at a speed which excited the interest of
traffic officers. When he left Royal Oak he stepped on the gas pedal with
a fierce, breathless enjoyment of the excitement of high speed. Beyond
Birmingham, once a distant village, now a suburb of Detroit, he turned
westward over the road that led to the Bloomfield Hills Country Club.
There he parked his car and, without caddy or companion, strode out upon
the links, playing savagely, rapidly.
Only here and there was a player. Potter encountered no one until he was
well away from the clubhouse. Then ahead of him he saw a man and girl,
with a second man in chauffeur's livery carrying the caddy bags. He did
not glance at them, but played feverishly on until he overtook them
sitting on a bench beside the tee.... It was Hildegarde von Essen, Cantor,
and Philip, the von Essens' chauffeur.
It was like a blow. He had last seen Hildegarde in Washington, and there
Hildegarde had repeated her confession--that she loved him and could not
marry him because she was fit to be no man's wife. And he had wrung from
her, or believed he had wrung from her, the admission that Cantor was the
cause of her catastrophe.... And here he found her with the man,
chaperoned by a chauffeur, playing golf as casually as if the man had a
right to her companionship and friendship; as if he were not something
that should be inexpressibly repulsive to her, terrible to contemplate.
Potter stopped fifty feet away from them and glared. It was unthinkable,
searing. In his soul he could not believe that relations could have
continued, yet what else did the fact indicate? Opaque blurs danced before
his eyes; he felt a geyser of passion boiling up within him, a geyser of
rage and horror, mingled with the agony of a love such as only a man of
his temperament could know.
It was not given to him ever to count costs, to look to the future, to
perceive results. Now he had but one thought--that Cantor was there, that
he hated Cantor, that the Lord had delivered Cantor into his hands. He
strode forward and confronted Hildegarde.
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