thorny bed upon the floor, offering his pain with his praise. When he
had whispered the last word, and had risen from the ground, his body
would be all freckled with drops of blood; he used to view the marks
with pride. Here and there a spine would be left deep in the flesh, and
he would pull these out roughly, tearing through the skin. On some
nights when he had pressed with more fervor on the thorns his thighs
would stream with blood, red beads standing out on the flesh, and
trickling down to his feet. He had some difficulty in washing away the
bloodstains so as not to leave any traces to attract the attention of
the servant; and after a time he returned no more to his bed when his
duty had been accomplished. For a coverlet he had a dark rug, a good
deal worn, and in this he would wrap his naked bleeding body, and lie
down on the hard floor, well content to add an aching rest to the
account of his pleasures. He was covered with scars, and those that
healed during the day were torn open afresh at night; the pale olive
skin was red with the angry marks of blood, and the graceful form of
the young man appeared like the body of a tortured martyr. He grew
thinner and thinner every day, for he ate but little; the skin was
stretched on the bones of his face, and the black eyes burnt in dark
purple hollows. His relations noticed that he was not looking well.
“Now, Lucian, it’s perfect madness of you to go on like this,” said
Miss Deacon, one morning at breakfast. “Look how your hand shakes; some
people would say that you have been taking brandy. And all that you
want is a little medicine, and yet you won’t be advised. You know it’s
not my fault; I have asked you to try Dr. Jelly’s Cooling Powders again
and again.”
He remembered the forcible exhibition of the powders when he was a boy,
and felt thankful that those days were over. He only grinned at his
cousin and swallowed a great cup of strong tea to steady his nerves,
which were shaky enough. Mrs. Dixon saw him one day in Caermaen; it was
very hot, and he had been walking rather fast. The scars on his body
burnt and tingled, and he tottered as he raised his hat to the vicar’s
wife. She decided without further investigation that he must have been
drinking in public-houses.
“It seems a mercy that poor Mrs. Taylor was taken,” she said to her
husband. “She has certainly been spared a great deal. That wretched
young man passed me this afternoon; he was quite intoxicated.”
“How very said,” said Mr. Dixon. “A little port, my dear?”
“Thank you, Merivale, I will have another glass of sherry. Dr. Burrows
is always scolding me and saying I _must_ take something to keep up my
energy, and this sherry is so weak.”
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