But now, as he prepared the vellum leaves, he remembered his art with
joy; he had not laboured to do beautiful work in vain. He read over his
manuscript once more, and thought of the designing of the pages. He
made sketches on furtive sheets of paper, and hunted up books in his
father’s library for suggestions. There were books about architecture,
and medieval iron work, and brasses which contributed hints for
adornment; and not content with mere pictures he sought in the woods
and hedges, scanning the strange forms of trees, and the poisonous
growth of great water-plants, and the parasite twining of honeysuckle
and briony. In one of these rambles he discovered a red earth which he
made into a pigment, and he found in the unctuous juice of a certain
fern an ingredient which he thought made his black ink still more
glossy. His book was written all in symbols, and in the same spirit of
symbolism he decorated it, causing wonderful foliage to creep about the
text, and showing the blossom of certain mystical flowers, with emblems
of strange creatures, caught and bound in rose thickets. All was
dedicated to love and a lover’s madness, and there were songs in it
which haunted him with their lilt and refrain. When the book was
finished it replaced the loose leaves as his constant companion by day
and night. Three times a day he repeated his ritual to himself, seeking
out the loneliest places in the woods, or going up to his room; and
from the fixed intentness and rapture of his gaze, the father thought
him still severely employed in the questionable process of composition.
At night he contrived to wake for his strange courtship; and he had a
peculiar ceremony when he got up in the dark and lit his candle. From a
steep and wild hillside, not far from the house, he had cut from time
to time five large boughs of spiked and prickly gorse. He had brought
them into the house, one by one, and had hidden them in the big box
that stood beside his bed. Often he woke up weeping and murmuring to
himself the words of one of his songs, and then when he had lit the
candle, he would draw out the gorse-boughs, and place them on the
floor, and taking off his nightgown, gently lay himself down on the bed
of thorns and spines. Lying on his face, with the candle and the book
before him, he would softly and tenderly repeat the praises of his
dear, dear Annie, and as he turned over page after page, and saw the
raised gold of the majuscules glow and flame in the candle-light, he
pressed the thorns into his flesh. At such moments he tasted in all its
acute savour the joy of physical pain; and after two or three
experiences of such delights he altered his book, making a curious sign
in vermilion on the margin of the passages where he was to inflict on
himself this sweet torture. Never did he fail to wake at the appointed
hour, a strong effort of will broke through all the heaviness of sleep,
and he would rise up, joyful though weeping, and reverently set his
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