And since the news of the marriage he found that his worship of her had
by no means vanished; rather in his heart was the eternal treasure of a
happy love, untarnished and spotless; it would be like a mirror of gold
without alloy, bright and lustrous for ever. For Lucian, it was no
defect in the woman that she was desirous and faithless; he had not
conceived an affection for certain moral or intellectual accidents, but
for the very woman. Guided by the self-evident axiom that humanity is
to be judged by literature, and not literature by humanity, he detected
the analogy between _Lycidas_ and Annie. Only the dullard would object
to the nauseous cant of the one, or to the indiscretions of the other.
A sober critic might say that the man who could generalize Herbert and
Laud, Donne and Herrick, Sanderson and Juxon, Hammond and Lancelot
Andrewes into “our corrupted Clergy” must be either an imbecile or a
scoundrel, or probably both. The judgment would be perfectly true, but
as a criticism of _Lycidas_ it would be a piece of folly. In the case
of the woman one could imagine the attitude of the conventional lover;
of the chevalier who, with his tongue in his cheek, “reverences and
respects” all women, and coming home early in the morning writes a
leading article on St English Girl. Lucian, on the other hand, felt
profoundly grateful to the delicious Annie, because she had at
precisely the right moment voluntarily removed her image from his way.
He confessed to himself that, latterly, he had a little dreaded her
return as an interruption; he had shivered at the thought that their
relations would become what was so terribly called an “intrigue” or
“affair.” There would be all the threadbare and common stratagems, the
vulgarity of secret assignations, and an atmosphere suggesting the
period of Mr. Thomas Moore and Lord Byron and “segars.” Lucian had been
afraid of all this; he had feared lest love itself should destroy love.
He considered that now, freed from the torment of the body, leaving
untasted the green water that makes thirst more burning, he was
perfectly initiated in the true knowledge of the splendid and glorious
love. There seemed to him a monstrous paradox in the assertion that
there could be no true love without a corporal presence of the beloved;
even the popular sayings of “Absence makes the heart grow fonder,” and
“familiarity breeds contempt,” witnessed to the contrary. He thought,
sighing, and with compassion, of the manner in which men are
continually led astray by the cheat of the senses. In order that the
unborn might still be added to the born, nature had inspired men with
the wild delusion that the bodily companionship of the lover and the
beloved was desirable above all things, and so, by the false show of
pleasure, the human race was chained to vanity, and doomed to an
eternal thirst for the non-existent.
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