Free of the cloister! Oh, the rare intoxication of that thought! And
quickly upon it came the memory of that other departure, when he had
turned his back on the south, had strained his eyes towards the
setting sun. Then spring had awakened in the land, everything was
promise, save the life upon which he was entering. The spring had
gone, and with the spring the happiness of his life. A summer
landscape stretched before him; and he rode towards the setting sun.
Francesco rode slowly enough. The fresh, free air came joyously to his
nostrils. His eyes, less sunken than they had looked for months,
though he knew it not, were seeking out those small tokens of beauty,
which friendly nature gladly exhibits to so devoted a seeker. Two
shrines had he already passed without a Pater Noster, filled with a
quick, delirious happiness, which rose continually from his heart to
his lips.
Through the long, strange, secluded days at Monte Cassino, he had
become aware of a profound respite from the ferment of thought. On
this morning, however, the sense of self, with all its complications,
had utterly vanished. The insistent illusions of the past seemed to
have left him. In the high solitudes in which he had been moving,
living inviolate behind a stillness not of this world, he had wandered
alone, yet not alone, through the spiritual landscape of which Fate
had opened the portals.
Of the monks he had left he thought without regret. They were not
remarkable people, only ordinary men, for whom the veil that separates
the seen from the unseen had become thin and sheer. But if not
remarkable themselves, a remarkable force was playing through them.
Dreamers, yet carrying in their dream the memory of the world's
sorrow, they had gained high victory from long meditation on
redemption accomplished, and on the spiritual glory that transcends.
Yet the knowledge, that by the way of renunciation one comes to the
way of fulfillment, had not yet dawned upon Francesco.
The sun, long clear of the tree-tops, had reached the valleys, and, as
he gazed, the light between the great tree-trunks grew from splendor
to splendor, and flashed its level glories through the forest,
transfiguring the leaves to flame. The dark trees, which crowned the
hill, were giving place, as he descended, to woods of fresher green.
In the grass below cyclamen hung their heads dew-freighted. The birds
were at matins. Through the soft foliage the sky shone, a lustrous
amethyst.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account