Husband and wife -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
He was surprised and a little inclined to resent her coolness.
Unaccountably he found himself in a very bad temper and with no
possible excuse for it. If he spoke he felt certain that they would
quarrel and that he would be wholly and shamefully to blame. He did
not speak, but there was a muttering resentment of something stirring
up in him. It persisted, until he thought of Augusta as he had seen
her coming trudging out of the dusk like some deserted, forlorn little
squaw upon the trail. Then his natural insight came to him, and he
knew, as well as if he had walked with her, that Augusta had cried
bitterly all the way, and that she was now hardening herself against
his sympathy lest she should break down and let him see what her day's
work had cost her.
He understood now. And the thought of Augusta facing the dreary winter
here without her pet and friend made him feel very bitterly the having
to accept the sacrifice from her. Surely Augusta must know how he
appreciated the sacrifice. But he could not tell her. He could not say
a word, for all the time his mind was biting in upon itself and he was
mumbling, "Wouldn't it be nice now if I were to speak up and say just
what's the simple truth--'I'm awfully sorry, Augusta, but of course
you had to have the money to feed me all winter.' That _would_ sound
pretty, and comforting, wouldn't it!"
Because he was as ignorant of Augusta as all fairly good men will
always be of women, he did not know that Augusta wanted him to say
nothing of the kind. What she did want him to do was to take her
forcibly in his arms and _tell_ her that he understood all that it
meant to her. Like all men who think quickly and deeply he did not know
the value of the spoken word, to a woman. He did not know that, while
intuition and understanding are very well within certain limits, there
are certain things which to a woman are never true until she hears them
spoken in so many words.
They walked on in a silence that grew every moment more painful, until
Wardwell knew that he could bear it no longer. He must say something.
At random he said the very worst thing, naturally.
"I had no idea," he ventured, "that anybody would be wanting to buy
horses at this time of year."
"Nobody did want to buy. Mr. Gamblin was sorry for me, I guess, and
bought him, for speculation, he said. I'll feel obliged to give back
the money if he isn't able to sell him again."
"Oh, it was Gamblin, was it?" said Jimmie grumpily. He was not
concerned with Augusta's problem in ethics. He had somebody to blame
now, and he was furiously angry with Jethniah Gamblin. What business
had that old schemer to take Augusta at her word in that way?
They came to the house in silence and prepared and ate a meal that was
the most cheerless and dreary that these two had ever eaten together.
When it was over and the things were cleared away Jimmie settled into
his chair by the table lamp, took up pad and pencil and pretended to
believe that he was going to work.
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