Husband and wife -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
And in the darkness, as would happen, the old love came back to mock
her. Oh, why, _why_? had she not kept the love that was hers? Why had
she not fought that dark woman for it? She had meanly run away, because
it was not good enough, because it was not perfect. Because she had
found a flaw in it she had thrown away her jewel.
Now it was given her, for punishment, to know how good that love had
been. The touch of Jimmie's clumsy hands as he had tucked her into her
hammock at night burned her now with the maddening sweetness of a lost
dream. The nights when she had watched over him, the pride and the
swelling love of seeing rugged health come back to him, the memories of
brave, struggling, laughing walks by his side through wind and snow,
all these and a thousand dear, intimate memories came to haunt her with
the mocking difference between a warm, happy human love, and the empty
dream that she had made for herself.
But she did not go down under despair.
Jimmie was gone. She would never be near him again. She did not say it.
But she had no strength to deny it. She was dumb. She was defeated.
There was nothing to live for, and, apparently, nothing to die for.
But her heart held on, beaten, unhoping, but living.
And today, not an hour ago, a wonderful thing had happened. A miracle
had stolen upon her unawares. She could not now say just where she was
or what she was doing at the time. She had heard nothing, seen nothing.
But she found that she was suddenly, and unaccountably, certain that
Jimmie was not dead.
She did not try to think what might have brought this intelligence
to her. Perhaps he had come back to consciousness and his heart had
answered her. She did not care. She did not want to think. Her dream
had sprung back to life again and was once more carrying her, happy but
still trembling and fearful, up again through the heights from which
she had fallen.
She had told the doctor the exact truth. It was not anything that she
had seen or heard. But she _knew_ that somehow a message had come to
her heart from Jimmie. God had not mocked her faith. She _knew_. And
she waited.
It was a long, long summer afternoon through which she worked and
waited, her spirit quivering to the sense of a great wonder hovering
near at hand. She did not feel or recognize any premonition that
Wardwell was physically near her. She had schooled herself well since
those terrible early days, back in the base hospital, when she had
fearfully crept near to and studied every long bundle of a broken man
that was brought in, praying that it might be, and that it might not
be, Jimmie. She did not do those things now, for she had learned the
heavy cost of them upon her strength and her nerves. And now, too, she
was still living upon that sight of Jimmie lying out in the open at the
foot of a bank, and, curiously, she did not think of him as having been
moved from there.
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