When he awoke he staggered suddenly to his feet. The smart of his
back and legs recalled him, after a few moments of bewilderment, to
a mental torture he had scarcely yet had time to feel. He--David
Grieve--had been beaten--thrashed like a dog--by Jim Wigson! The
remembered fact brought with it a degradation of mind and body--a
complete unstringing of the moral fibres, which made even revenge
seem an impossible output of energy. A nature of this sort, with
such capacities and ambitions, carries about with it a sense of
supremacy, a natural, indispensable self-conceit which acts as the
sheath to the bud, and is the condition of healthy development.
Break it down and you bruise and jeopardise the flower of life.
Jim Wigson!--the coarse, ignorant lout with whom he had been, more
or less, at feud since his first day in Kinder, whom he had
despised with all the strength of his young vanity. By to-morrow
all Kinder would know, and all Kinder would laugh. 'What! yo
whopped Reuben Grieve's nevvy, Jim? Wal, an a good thing, too!
A lick now an again ud do _him_ noa harm--a cantankerous yoong
rascot--pert an proud, like t' passon's pig, I say.' David could
hear the talk to be as though it were actually beside him. It burnt
into his ear.
He groped his way through the lane and on to the moor--trembling
with physical exhaustion, the morbid frenzy within him choking his
breath, the storm beating in his face. What was that black mass to
his right?--the smithy? A hard sob rose in his throat. Oh, he had
been so near to an ideal world of sweetness, purity, holiness! Was
it a year ago?
With great difficulty he found the crossing-place in the brook, and
then the gap in the wall which led him into the farm fields. When
he was still a couple of fields off the house he heard the dogs
beginning. But he heard them as though in a dream.
At last he stood at the door and fumbled for the handle. Locked!
Why, what time could it be? He tried to remember what time he had
left home, but failed. At last he knocked, and just as he did so he
perceived through a chink of the kitchen shutter a light on the
scrubbed deal table inside, and Hannah's figure beside it. At
the sound of the knocker Hannah rose, put away her work with
deliberation, snuffed the candle, and then moved with it to the
door of the kitchen. The boy watched her with a quickly beating
heart and whirling brain. She opened the door.
'Whar yo bin?' she demanded sternly. 'I'd like to know what business
yo have to coom in this time o' neet, an your uncle fro whoam.
Yo've bin in mischief, I'll be bound. Theer's Louie coom back wi a
black eye, an jes because she woan't say nowt about it, I know as
it's yo are at t' bottom o' 't. I'm reg'lar sick o' sich doins in a
decent house. Whar yo bin, I say?'
And this time she held the candle up so as to see him. She had been
sitting fuming by herself, and was in one of her blackest tempers.
David's misdemeanour was like food to a hungry instinct.
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