Then, as he fell thinking of his talk with Dora and Lomax, he
wished impatiently that he had been even plainer with Daddy about
Lucy Purcell. With regard to her he felt himself caught in a
tangled mesh of obligation. He must, somehow, return her the
service she had done him. And then all the world would think he was
making up to her and wanted to marry her. Meanwhile--in the midst
of real gratitude, a strong desire to stand between her and her
father, and much eager casting about for some means of paying her
back--his inner mind was in reality pitilessly critical towards
her. Her overdone primness and neatness, her fashionable frocks, of
which she was so conscious, her horror of things and people that
were not 'nice,' her contented ignorance and silly chattering
ways--all these points of manner and habit were scored against her
in his memory. She had become less congenial to him rather than
more since he knew her first. All the same, she was a little brick,
and he would have liked one minute to kiss her for her pluck, make
her some lordly present, and the next--never to see her again!
In reality his mind at this moment was filling with romantic images
and ideals totally remote from anything suggested by his own
everyday life. A few weeks before, old Barbier, his French master,
had for the first time lent him some novels of George Sand's. David
had carried them off, had been enchanted to find that he could now
read them with ease and rapidity, and had plunged straightway into
the new world thus opened to him with indescribable zest and
passion. His Greek had been neglected, his science laid aside.
Night after night he had been living with Valentine, with Consuelo,
with Caroline in 'Le Marquis de Villemer.' His poetical reading of
the winter had prepared the way for what was practically his first
introduction to the modern literature of passion. The stimulating
novelty and foreignness of it was stirring all his blood. George
Sand's problems, her situations, her treatment of the great
questions of sex, her social and religious enthusiasms--these
things were for the moment a new gospel to this provincial
self-taught lad, as they had been forty years before to the youth
of 1830. Under the vitalising touch of them the man was fast
developing out of the boy; the currents of the nature were
setting in fresh directions. And in such a mood, and with such
preoccupations, how was one to bear patiently with foolish,
friendly fingers, or with uncomfortable thoughts of your own,
pointing you to _Lucy Purcell?_ With the great marriage-night
scene from 'Valentine' thrilling in your mind, how was it possible
to think of the prim self-conceit, the pettish temper and mincing
airs of that little person in Half Street without irritation?
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