Domestic fiction; Families -- Fiction; Sex role -- Fiction; Spouses -- Fiction
Something in the expression of her father’s face struck her. She was
only thirteen, but an older intuition from her coming womanhood made
her say impulsively, with all her heart, “Father, you love it so ...
why don’t _you_ ... didn’t you ever try to write poetry, too?”
To her confusion, a slow, deep flush mounted all over her father’s
face. He looked down at the book in silence.
Helen was as horrified as if she had flung open the door of a
secret sanctuary in a temple. She jumped up from the sofa, and not
understanding her father, nor herself, nor what she was doing, “_Oh,
Father, dear,_” she murmured, her arms around his neck.
Henry and his puppy looked up at them sleepily. “Is it bedtime?” asked
Henry.
Helen went to sleep that night, still feeling the great hug Father had
given her. She had never felt Father love her so much before.
* * * * *
Downstairs before he went to bed her father, turning over the pages of
a book, was reading,
“And nothing to look backward to with pride,
And nothing to look forward to with hope.”
“Come, come!” he said to himself. “Terence, this is stupid stuff, you
eat your victuals fast enough. We’ll have to call this day one of our
failures. I’d better get it over with and start another.” His heart was
still bleeding to the old wound he had thought healed and forgotten
for years, which Helen’s sudden question had torn open. Good Heavens,
weren’t you safe from those old buried griefs until you were actually
under the sod?
And yet mingled with the old bitterness was a new sweetness, Helen’s
sympathy, Helen’s understanding. It had never occurred to him before
that children could give something as well as take all--the all he was
so thankful to give them. Why, he thought wistfully, Helen might be the
companion he had never had. He shook his head. No, that would not be
fair to her. No dead-hand business! She must find her companions in
her own generation. He must be ready to stand aside and let her pass on
when the time came. That new sweetness was offered to him only that he
might learn to make another renunciation.
He looked about him to see if there was anything to be done for the
house before he went to bed. “Shall I close that window over there?” he
thought to himself. “No, the night is warm. It will give us more air.”
He wheeled himself to the closed door of the dining-room, opened it and
perceived that the wind was blowing hard from the other direction, for
a strong draught instantly sucked past him between the open window back
of him and the open window at the head of Stephen’s bed. He felt the
gust and saw the long, light curtain curl eddying out towards him over
the flicker of Stephen’s bedside candle.
It caught in an instant. It flared up like gun-cotton, all over its
surface. It came dropping down ... horribly dropping down towards
Stephen’s unconscious, upturned face ... flames on that tender flesh!
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