London (England) -- Fiction; Theater -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
"What did you say?" she managed to ask.
"I said: When you’re my wife. What else could you be? You didn’t
propose to be a sister to me, did you? I’m impatient, dear. In your
letter you wrote: ’Just when you wish.’ Didn’t you mean it?"
She hid her burning face on his shoulder as she thought of what she had
meant. And all the while his one idea had been marriage! His wife!
Wife! Surely no word ever spoken could be so full of hallowed
significance! ... What would he think of her if he knew what she had
really meant? Ought she to tell him? Maidenly modesty counseled
reserve, to take what the gods had given her. But would that be honest?
Maggy, in her position, would have blurted out the truth at once in her
downright way: "Married and respectable! Oh, my dear, I didn’t think
you meant to include that in the program!" or some such easy phrase.
But she was not Maggy, and words would not come. She heard Meer asking
her how soon she could marry him; heard him outline a honeymoon in
places that would cure her cough. And all the while she could say
nothing. Meer, as happy as a schoolboy, was making an inspection of the
room. Love lent a glamour to its cramped proportions and mean
appurtenances. His eyes went to the small bed, resplendent now by reason
of Maggy’s eiderdown; an exasperating little bed nevertheless because it
made nearly as many sleep-dispelling noises as the too obtrusive
cistern.
"And that’s where you sleep!" he said softly. The lacy pillow-case with
her monogram on it, another of Maggy’s gifts, lay uppermost. He bent
and kissed it, then laughed diffidently and moved toward her. She
shrank back a step, making a gesture with her hands that was almost
supplicatory.
"There’s something I must say. I owe it to you," she said with quick
breaths. "You may not want to marry me when you know."
He saw that she was nerving herself to make some confession. Her
connection with the stage and his own intimate knowledge of it, gained
through professional attendance on many of its members, brought the
disquieting thought that it might have to do with that ethical laxity
that pervades its atmosphere. But none-the-less his arms went round
her.
"I know the stage is a dashed hard place for a girl," he said gruffly.
"So if it’s anything that’s finished and done with don’t tell me."
She shook her head. "It’s to do with me ... now."
"Not some other man?"
"No. Only you; you are the only one there ever has been, or ever will
be."
"Then what in the world is wrong?"
Alexandra’s words came tumbling out as though she feared her courage
would evaporate before she could speak them.
"You said the stage was a hard place for girls. It is. It’s all so
wrong everywhere that the idea of a man proposing marriage is—is a
surprise.... Oh, won’t you understand?" She clasped her hands tensely.
"You need not marry me—unless you want to, because I—didn’t expect it."
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