When he departed one morning, before daybreak, he took away with him under his large cloak an infant--a boy--whom he had sworn to cherish as his own child. CHAPTER XLII To quit Sairmeuse without any display of violence had cost Blanche an almost superhuman effort. The wildest anger convulsed her soul at the very moment, when, with an assumption of melancholy dignity, she murmured those words of forgiveness. Ah! had she obeyed the dictates of her resentment! But her indomitable vanity aroused within her the heroism of a gladiator dying on the arena, with a smile upon his lips. Falling, she intended to fall gracefully. “No one shall see me weep; no one shall hear me complain,” she said to her despondent father; “try to imitate me.” And on her return to the Chateau de Courtornieu, she was a stoic. Her face, although pale, was as immobile as marble, beneath the curious gaze of the servants. “I am to be called mademoiselle as in the past,” she said, imperiously. “Anyone forgetting this order will be dismissed.” A maid forgot that very day, and uttered the prohibited word, “madame.” The poor girl was instantly dismissed, in spite of her tears and protestations. All the servants were indignant. “Does she hope to make us forget that she is married and that her husband has deserted her?” they queried. Alas! she wished to forget it herself. She wished to annihilate all recollection of that fatal day whose sun had seen her a maiden, a wife, and a widow. For was she not really a widow? Only it was not death which had deprived her of her husband, but an odious rival--an infamous and perfidious creature lost to all sense of shame. And yet, though she had been disdained, abandoned, and repulsed, she was no longer free. She belonged to the man whose name she bore like a badge of servitude--to the man who hated her, who fled from her. She was not yet twenty; and this was the end of her youth, of her life, of her hopes, and even of her dreams. Society condemned her to solitude, while Martial was free to rove wheresoever fancy might lead him. Now she saw the disadvantage of isolating one’s self. She had not been without friends in her school-girl days; but after leaving the convent she had alienated them by her haughtiness, on finding them not as high in rank, nor as rich as herself. She was now reduced to the irritating consolations of Aunt Medea, who was a worthy person, undoubtedly, but her tears flowed quite as freely for the loss of a cat, as for the death of a relative. But Blanche bravely resolved that she would conceal her grief and despair in the recesses of her own heart. She drove about the country; she wore the prettiest dresses in her _trousseau_; she forced herself to appear gay and indifferent. But on going to attend high mass in Sairmeuse the following Sunday, she realized the futility of her efforts.