Once outside, where they could discern friend from foe, the troopers
instantly realized their mistake, and rallied round Roshan.
But it was too late for that now. As he stood, centring them, there was
a wild contempt, a vague relief, in his face. He knew now where his
sympathies lay. Not with these men, treacherous to their salt, but with
those who could hold--who _had_ held--their own against all odds. Yes!
even with that dead figure, still with its back to the door that must
not be opened.
The thought stung and seared like hot iron.
No! Not with that! not with that! That was--What?--
He could have killed himself for the unwavering testimony which every
scrap of him gave to the heroism, the defiance of such a death. He knew
he would give everything to die one like it; and he knew he could
not--not _now_. He knew he must die a useless death, to save himself
from a worse one.
"There is no real harm done, _Khân-jee_," broke in his lance-_duffadar_
in hurried excuse, seeing the expression on his face. "We can get in
easily again. Those holding the horses say there were but a score of
them all told--the cursed Sikhs--God knows how they got out of the
Fort! I thought we had them safe. And there was a woman with them--a
Miss-_baba_"--he laughed savagely. "Well! if they be brave as men,
these infidel women, let them die like men--the hell-cats!"
Roshan Khân looked at the man, whom he had known for years, as if he
had never seen him before. And the thought of another woman--with his
own blood in her veins--who had been brave also, and who had died--died
by his hand--returned to sweep him from every bearing, from every
landmark, eastern or western, and leave him rudderless, drifting, in a
storm of sheer despair. He laughed suddenly--an insane laugh--at the
hideousness, the hopelessness of it all. Laughed like the madman he was
for the time, at the horror which drove him mad.
"Kill her, if thou wilt, fool! I have done my share of that," he cried
brutally, striking out at the voice as he had struck at the other which
had told him of Vincent's victory. Striking as he felt inclined to
strike at anything and everything; most of all at the hateful confusion
in himself, and in his world. So, without another word, he broke
through the circle of troopers, dashed to where his horse awaited him,
and was off like a whirlwind; that strange possession of the Oriental
races, which, in a way, claims kindred with the Berserk rage of the
north, thrilling to his finger-tips; yet held in check, diverted from
sheer, mad, uncalculating desire to kill, by that acquired sense of
fair play.
"He goes to rouse the city," said some of his men, following him
hurriedly.
"And time, too!" assented some of the conspirators. "The dawn is upon
us, and if the pilgrims drift away, our hope is gone!"
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