“We did not entrust this child to you, father, to withdraw him from his
religious duties. You should not have forgotten this, for the sake both
of his soul and of us.”
She spoke with mingled firmness and gentleness, and her face, already
pale when we arrived, became so white from the effort she was making,
as to seem absolutely bloodless.
... Long, very long after this, when I was a young man, I was getting
ready to go out to meet a woman. The woman whom I loved--for how
long?--had promised to betray her husband for my pleasure, but I was
thinking only of her beauty. My mother came into my room. She had not
the courage to say a word; as so long ago she was trembling, this time
with that other sort of respect which is respect for oneself. I did not
know why she had come, and I felt uneasy at being detained. She laid
her hand on my shoulder:
“Francis,” she said, “listen; one must never take what belongs to
another.”
I protested my innocent intentions, and as I went my way I shook off
the importunate words, which however met me again on the road and went
with me. By what clairvoyance of love had my mother divined where I
was going? She had looked at me with those same eyes, faintly shadowed
by mist. Grief, rather than years, had already made her almost an old
woman. And I distinctly saw the evil of the light love to which I was
hastening with a song upon my lips....
Grandfather made no attempt to defend himself. He did not call to his
aid the little dry laugh which usually served him so conveniently in
shaking off his opponent without argument. He only murmured, somewhat
weakly, “Oh! goodness, what a fuss about nothing,” and hastened toward
the staircase, to go up to his tower where, at least, he would be
sheltered from reproach. But my father, who was coming down, seemed to
close the way. A conflict appeared to be imminent. And by the natural
inclination of my childish logic I suddenly recalled that return from
the procession which had first revealed to me this same antagonism:--my
parents all a-thrill from the ceremony which grandfather compared to
the festival of the sun, and my suddenly chilled enthusiasm. But I was
in a mood to take this recollection lightly; without knowing it, I had
changed sides.
Grandfather appeared to me all the more embarrassed on hearing steps
upon the stairs. He could not avoid the meeting. But as a matter
of fact it passed off the most quietly in the world. A few words
were exchanged about the weather, the crops, our walk. Generosity,
deference, the desire to avoid a domestic dispute, or to spare my
father an anxiety, kept my mother silent as to our late return.
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