“I know your name,” I said with some emphasis. “Your name is Nazzarena.”
She was greatly delighted at the extent of my knowledge.
“Aha! he knows my name. But it isn’t Nazzarena, it’s Nazzaré-na. Say
it!”
I must needs learn her accent. After which she asked,
“What’s your name?”
“Francis.”
“Like the saint of Assisi. And where are you from?”
“Why, from here, of course.”
How should I be from anywhere else? One lives in his own town and his
own house. Perhaps she perceived her blunder, for she asked no more
questions and it was I who bashfully resumed the conversation, not
without timidity.
“Where are you from?”
“I don’t know.”
What a curious answer! One always knows where one is from. Well!
“Then you have no house of your own?”
“That’s our house.”
She pointed to one of the waggons, the front of which was painted
green. I could not mistake her expression of scorn. She suddenly
turned away and gazed at the great buildings of cut stone which
surrounded the market place on all four sides; my town is ancient and
rugged, and its houses were built to last for centuries. Perhaps she
was estimating the security of a stationary life, but I was picturing
to myself the joys of a nomad existence when I went on:
“It must be very amusing.”
“What must?”
“To keep changing your locality.”
I used the word _locality_ purposely, to give her a high idea of
me.
“That depends,” she said. “There are places where the receipts are bad.
One time we made only seven francs and a half.”
Details of that sort were of no interest, but I went on to confess to
an unbounded admiration for this mode of life. At this declaration she
opened her eyes wide, doubtless amazed that one could envy her when one
lived in one of those great buildings, capable of enduring all sorts of
bad weather.
“All the same you wouldn’t come with us.” The mere suggestion seemed to
please her, but she at once put it away as an absurdity.
“Besides you can’t know much. But you’z cute.”
Again that expression which seemed offensive to my self-love. I could
not remain silent under so unworthy an estimate, and I retorted proudly,
“I can ride horse-back.”
I had sometimes been hoisted upon our farmer’s blind mare, and had even
experienced a disquietude akin to fear when long shivers ran through
her body. My friend appeared enchanted and promised to lend me her
black steed.
How does the grown-up heart differ from that of childhood? I had not
the least idea of going with her. She did not suppose I was going. I
had not the slightest equestrian ability. She had no authority over her
horse; without mutual agreement each was conniving at luring the other
on. It was a delicious foretaste of the falsehoods which lurk beneath
all lovers’ conversations.
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