“_Leave this world, Christian soul, in the name of God the Father
Almighty who created thee; in the name of Jesus Christ, Son of
the living God who suffered for thee; in the name of Angels and
Archangels, of Thrones and Dominations; in the name of Principalities
and Powers, of Cherubim and Seraphim; in the name of the Patriarchs
and Prophets, and of the Holy Apostles and Evangelists; in the name
of the Holy Martyrs and Confessors, in the name of the holy Monks and
Solitaries, in the name of the holy Virgins, and of all the Saints of
God. May thy dwelling be this day in peace and thy habitation in the
Holy Places!_ ...”
All heaven assembled to receive the Soul to whom the portals of Life
were opened.
_We are not parted; we are going forward to meet again_; I
understood the meaning of her words.
In the silence that followed my reading, once more I heard the
monotonous lament of the fountain in the court, and I recalled my
father’s confidence when, about to speak, confidence had closed his
lips. What could he have said to my mother which she would not know
from him? She was still living with him. She would finish his work, and
then she would go to join him. It was so simple; and this was why she
was so at peace.
Her calmness communicated itself to Aunt Deen, always at work, and
ever on the lookout for the most humiliating duties, polishing floors
or blacking shoes, as if she would punish herself for having outlived
her nephew. And when mother gently took her to task for her excessive
devotion, she would protest with tears, as if begging a favour.
As at evening one sees the village lights come out, one by one, along
the slopes, so I could see the lights of our house shining out even
beyond our own horizon, to the ends of the world, and even beyond the
world. They were shining for the absent as well as for the present,
for Mélanie at the bedside of the poor, for Stephen at Rome, and for
Bernard, soldier of the outposts in his far distant colony. And they
were shining still higher.
And it seemed to me that the walls whose restrictions I had deplored
during my years of youth, during my mad search for liberty, were
opening of themselves to let me pass out. They no longer kept me
a prisoner. How should they keep me a prisoner? Wherever I might
henceforth go, I should carry with me a bit of earth, a bit of my
earth, as if I had been made of its dust, as God made the first man.
That evening, the eve of my departure, my faith in The House became
faith in The Eternal House where the dead live again in peace....
April, 1908--December, 1912.
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