New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Prostitutes -- Fiction
Mary was too ill to go to work that night, and on the night following
she was no better. The shock, the spasm of success, the recoil, not
moral but physical, after the satisfaction of a supreme desire--these
things were, of themselves, enough to leave her prostrate. But, in
addition to these, she had, while standing at that open door,
contracted one of those heavy colds to which she was now rendered
especially susceptible. Through long hours of the day and the
darkness she tossed among the hot sheets of her bed, sometimes with
her teeth clicking in a chill, again with her body burning in a
fever, but always revolving in her seething brain the details of the
vengeance that she had wrought.
Her physical sufferings mattered little to her. There were hours
when she was wholly incapable of feeling them. When the inertia of
the state of reaction began at last to wear away, it left her with a
glow of recollection so great that there seemed no place for lesser
sensation. She had accomplished her great work, she had achieved her
mission. What she had done had been done solely for her own heart's
sake; there had been no delusion of a celestial command, no distorted
thought of a social duty; yet, the impulse, however utilitarian, had
been supreme, and its end filled her with a sense of triumph that,
for want of the proper title, she was sure was happiness.
A wiser head and an unwounded heart would have known enough of life
to see that even Max Grossman was not entirely to blame. A better
brain could have looked back into the past. It could have seen Max
as the type of all his kind, the symbol of every one of the great
company of slavers, the inevitable result of a system blind both to
its own interests and to the interests of the race. It could have
seen the child, one of half a dozen born to a woman that could not,
properly, have cared for three. It could have seen that child
neglected, dirty, forgotten, locked, by day, in the bedroom where the
whole family tried vainly to sleep by night, learning the highest
facts of life from the worst of teachers: the cramped childish
brain--and going out, at last, upon the street, with passions
prematurely developed and perverted. It could have seen the social
order shape that child into society's enemy: the starved
boy-pickpocket sent to the monstrously misnamed "reformatory"; the
same child branded as a criminal, with none to shelter or to trust
him, and with a knowledge, gained in the state's own institution,
which fitted him to be only a crafty gorilla to harass the state. It
could have seen the fatal line of least resistance as clearly in the
resultant man as it is seen in the life of him that does no more than
wreck a bank or steal a corporation, and, hideous as its course is in
the one instance, it would have seen that the line was the same in
all.
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