The House of Defence v. 1Benson, E. F. (Edward Frederic)
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The House of Defence v. 1
Benson, E. F. (Edward Frederic)
Christian Science -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Spiritual healing -- Fiction
She had drawn back her curtains, leaving only the blind to cover the
wide-open windows, and the moon outside shone full on it, making the
furniture and details of her room vividly visible. The walls were
white, the sofas and chairs were white also, and on her dressing-table
glimmered the silver of the mirror-frame and the silver handles of
brushes and toilet articles. How much or how little, she thought, these
common-place, familiar things might mean! How external sights and sounds
and objects could be soaked with emotion, and how, again, they could be
just like dry sponges, hard and gritty almost to the touch, dead and
fossilised! And all she saw here, in this her bedchamber, was no more
than dry sponge; no wine or liquor of love had soaked into those things.
All her life, but once for a few short weeks, she had been without it,
and how much she had missed she was now unwillingly and rebelliously
beginning to guess. 'Arry and 'Arriet in the street, who shouted songs
and changed hats, were so infinitely richer than she, in spite of all
that was hers--her position, her gifts, her beauty. All these should
have been just the trappings and embellishment of the chariot in which
Love rode. Without Love they were nothing--odds and ends, fit for a
jumble sale. Once, it is true, she had seen the chariot of Love ready
for her, but she had turned back from it, though her foot was on the
step. She had been very young; she could not guess how all-important was
her choice, and at that age her mother's will rather than her own had
been her destiny. But now again she felt sure the chariot was coming to
her. What she had rejected before was to be offered her again.
Yet still her will was her destiny, and sooner than play with these
thoughts or admit argument about them, she got up, meaning to read a
book till sleep came to her. The book she wanted was on the table in the
window, and before she lit a candle she crossed the room to get it. The
clock on her mantelpiece had just chimed two, and a light shone from
under the chink of the door on the left that led to Thurso's
dressing-room, so that she knew he was awake still. Also, from outside
she heard the subdued crunch of gravel under the heel of someone who
still loitered in the air of this still summer night. And then below his
breath someone outside--the loiterer, no doubt--began whistling a
plaintive Hungarian folk-tune that she had not heard for years. But
that--that untutored little melody was soaked and dripping with emotion
for her.
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