The House of Defence v. 1Benson, E. F. (Edward Frederic)
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The House of Defence v. 1
Benson, E. F. (Edward Frederic)
Christian Science -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Spiritual healing -- Fiction
Catherine Thurso, as will have been gathered, did her duty with
exemplary fullness in the state of life to which her mother, in the
main, had called her. As soon as she married she grasped the idea of
life that her position entailed, if she was to fill it adequately and
with any credit to herself; welcomed the prospect almost with rapture;
and, with all the splendid energies of her mind and body, lived up to a
really high ideal of it. Her time, her talents, and her money were
always at the service of any scheme which she believed to be one that
merited support, and she brought to her task not the sense of duty only,
but a most warm-hearted kindliness. An unsupported sense of duty alone
is a barren road to tread, but her genuine kindliness, her real interest
in those who were in need, made it break out for her into flowers. She
truly cared for the causes at which she so slaved; she wanted everybody
to enjoy himself. But this warmth, this amiability, which pervaded her
nature was both the strongest and the highest motive she knew. She did
everything warmly, but nothing passionately, because it seemed as if
passion had been left out of her nature. Yet sometimes, as on this
afternoon, when the factors for years long past were coming up above the
horizon again, she wondered whether that was quite strictly the case. It
was years, certainly, since any hint or suggestion of it had come near
her, but she remembered now that unquiet and perplexity, half bliss,
half unhappiness, which she had known in those few weeks, and which had
culminated in her half promise (it had not been more than that) to marry
Rudolf Villars. Whatever that feeling was, it had been a bud only,
something unopened, and had never expanded into a flower, for swift
maternal hands had, without any figure of speech, nipped it off. She had
been called a sentimental schoolgirl with such extraordinary assurance
and acidity that she had felt that it must be the case.
But to-day, when she knew that this evening the man who had roused in
her the sentimentality at any rate of a schoolgirl would, after this
long lapse of years, come to her house again, she wondered (though this
was useless emotional baggage) if she would feel anything that would
show her that he had once been different to all others. She had not seen
him since. Probably he was rather bald, rather stout, rather of the
diplomatist type, which seemed to her often to be slightly tinged with
pomposity. Very likely, when his name was announced, she would see a
total stranger, shake hands with a stranger. She almost hoped that this
would prove to be so.
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